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    Sunday, November 25th, 2001
    10:54 pm
    the lemur situation...
    one day i'll explain this, but for now... read this (a convo between me and lemur's best friend):

    piccoloMRGRT: hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
    AranElus: hmmm
    piccoloMRGRT: what
    AranElus: partha is convinced that lemur has a very good reason for being the way she is
    piccoloMRGRT: i hear prt is trying to settle this
    piccoloMRGRT: yes
    piccoloMRGRT: he told me
    piccoloMRGRT: i mean i know she's not ready or whatever
    piccoloMRGRT: but i think maybe u guys should hang out within a group of ppl
    AranElus: yes
    AranElus: that's a good idea
    AranElus: that's what i originally wanted to do
    AranElus: unfortunately, she impressed me so much that i couldn't resist being stupid
    piccoloMRGRT: awwwwwww
    piccoloMRGRT: welllllllllllllll
    piccoloMRGRT: u gotta understand that she thinks she's not ready for a relationship
    piccoloMRGRT: so maybe she's not
    piccoloMRGRT: but she should def hang out with u
    AranElus: hehe
    piccoloMRGRT: yeah
    piccoloMRGRT: thats my opinion
    AranElus: well, we should convince her into growing up a little anyway
    piccoloMRGRT: ok, but if she doesnt want to, we can't force her
    AranElus: i won't
    AranElus: it's a shame
    piccoloMRGRT: yeah
    piccoloMRGRT: i know
    AranElus: i can fall out of like with her given a week
    piccoloMRGRT: she'll grow up in time
    AranElus: i'm sure
    piccoloMRGRT: i have no idea when
    AranElus: good
    AranElus: well
    AranElus: hmmmmmm
    piccoloMRGRT: hmmm
    AranElus: yeah.. let's get us to hang out more...
    AranElus: she doesn't want me to talk to her in person, though
    piccoloMRGRT: i know
    piccoloMRGRT: but she should
    AranElus: rephrase that
    AranElus: it is unclear
    piccoloMRGRT: haha
    piccoloMRGRT: she should talk to u in person
    piccoloMRGRT: in order to determine whether...
    piccoloMRGRT: nm
    AranElus: not nm.... keep going
    piccoloMRGRT: oh
    piccoloMRGRT: well she should talk to u in person to determine if she maybe COULD like u, or at least want to hang out with u
    piccoloMRGRT: .........
    AranElus: yeah
    AranElus: that makes sense
    AranElus: sorry that it takes me some time to respond.. i'm doing something..
    piccoloMRGRT: yup
    piccoloMRGRT: ok
    AranElus: keep talking though, i'm paying attention
    piccoloMRGRT: haha
    piccoloMRGRT signed off at 9:25:22 PM.
    piccoloMRGRT signed on at 9:25:58 PM.
    AranElus: do you think that lemur may have suppressed memories?
    piccoloMRGRT: huh?
    piccoloMRGRT: explain yourself
    AranElus: maybe something terrible happened with her parents when she was young that made her not want to grow up and turn into what they were
    piccoloMRGRT: hmmm
    piccoloMRGRT: somehow i doubt that
    AranElus: it's not normal to be like how she is
    AranElus: to be that stubborn about something
    AranElus: there has to be some reason
    piccoloMRGRT: shes stubborn about everything
    piccoloMRGRT: its just her
    AranElus: i'm having my doubts as to if she will actually go out with me ever
    AranElus: severe doubts
    piccoloMRGRT: yeah
    piccoloMRGRT: i am having severe doubts as to if she will actually go out with ANYONE ever
    piccoloMRGRT: hehe
    AranElus: i'm beginning to think that this entire thing is a big mistake
    AranElus: that we shouldn't try to even get us hanging out with each other
    piccoloMRGRT: hmm
    piccoloMRGRT: yeah
    piccoloMRGRT: i know what u mean
    piccoloMRGRT: but i dunno
    AranElus: i want to help her
    AranElus: though
    AranElus: help her grow up...
    piccoloMRGRT: yea
    piccoloMRGRT: *sigh* it shall happen eventually
    AranElus: i think that she thinks that if she grows up, she will be changed
    AranElus: but, look at me!
    AranElus: i've grownup
    AranElus: and i'm still insane
    AranElus: i'm still different
    piccoloMRGRT: yes i know what u mean
    piccoloMRGRT: lol
    piccoloMRGRT: so am i!
    piccoloMRGRT: haha
    AranElus: but we've grown up!
    piccoloMRGRT: i'm the one everyone knows as psychotic
    piccoloMRGRT: still
    AranElus: i think this is our strongest arguement
    piccoloMRGRT: yes
    piccoloMRGRT: def
    AranElus: you don't have to act grown up to be grown up
    piccoloMRGRT: true very true
    AranElus: i think that lemur has grown up
    AranElus: but she's afraid to admit it
    AranElus: and this entire thing is a big play to try and convince herself she hasn't
    AranElus: kind of like her last thread of hope
    AranElus: do you think that idea holds water?
    AranElus: (not literally)
    piccoloMRGRT: haha
    piccoloMRGRT: perhaps
    piccoloMRGRT: i mean it makes sense
    piccoloMRGRT: but i don't know if it applies to this
    piccoloMRGRT: but it could
    AranElus: you know lemur thousands of times better than i do
    AranElus: hmmm
    piccoloMRGRT: hehe
    AranElus: this is weird...
    AranElus: i just want to help her now
    piccoloMRGRT: aww
    AranElus: not as much go out with her
    AranElus: because i don't htink that will happen
    piccoloMRGRT: omg, u are so nice
    piccoloMRGRT: haha
    AranElus: there's a time where a man must bend
    piccoloMRGRT: but the thing is, before this whole thing, i wouldn't have thought, O, lemur needs to grow up
    AranElus: yeah
    piccoloMRGRT: she was just lemur
    piccoloMRGRT: she still is
    AranElus: she probably is grown up in everything else but this
    AranElus: that's why it didn't glare at you that she was a child
    piccoloMRGRT: oooooh
    piccoloMRGRT: deep
    AranElus: i mean, for god's sakes, its not like i'm asking her to marry me!
    piccoloMRGRT: i know
    piccoloMRGRT: *sigh*
    AranElus: and i was just going to make up the rules as i went along
    piccoloMRGRT: i told her, i know how u feel, its hard to imagine yourself going out with someone
    AranElus: if she said yes to go out with me
    AranElus: hee
    AranElus: hehe
    piccoloMRGRT: and she was like, YES i can't imagine it
    piccoloMRGRT: i know exactly where she is coming from
    AranElus: i can't imagine someone going out with me either
    AranElus: hehe
    piccoloMRGRT: yea
    piccoloMRGRT: so u just have to try and see what happens
    AranElus: but that is what makes it fun and exciting
    AranElus: it's different from Alex and Carrie.. they are just like "blah blah blah"
    AranElus: you can predict it
    AranElus: but with me, no one knows
    AranElus: not even i do
    piccoloMRGRT: hahaha
    piccoloMRGRT: caralex have known eachother forever, and liked each other for a long time, and it was just like it HAD to happen
    AranElus: that's why i think lemur would enjoy going out with me
    AranElus: because it would be random
    AranElus: and interesting
    AranElus: it'd be like being her best friend
    AranElus: more than going out with her
    piccoloMRGRT: yeah
    piccoloMRGRT: cuz u guys are both so random
    piccoloMRGRT: but she is SO shy
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: much like alex
    AranElus: shy and childish
    piccoloMRGRT: did u know that she like never talked until she met me?
    AranElus: yeah
    AranElus: she told me
    piccoloMRGRT: haha
    piccoloMRGRT: same with crisp, she was never like she is now
    piccoloMRGRT: I DROVE THEM ALL INSANE
    piccoloMRGRT: mwahahahaha
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: who is crisp?
    piccoloMRGRT: christy
    AranElus: ahh
    piccoloMRGRT: yang-bopp
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: that 'bopp' joke is so damn old
    piccoloMRGRT: haha do u even know how it started
    AranElus: three years ago
    piccoloMRGRT: nooooo
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: before then?
    AranElus: actually, four years
    piccoloMRGRT: i started calling hales Hale-Bopp after the comet
    piccoloMRGRT: WHAT
    AranElus: no!
    piccoloMRGRT: YES
    AranElus: i started calling him that!
    piccoloMRGRT: NO WAY
    piccoloMRGRT: u cant' be serious!
    AranElus: 7th grade for me
    piccoloMRGRT: WOW
    piccoloMRGRT: OMG
    AranElus: four years ago
    piccoloMRGRT: i just started this yr
    AranElus: i beat you!
    AranElus: bwahahahah!
    piccoloMRGRT: i thought i made it up
    AranElus: well you didn't!
    piccoloMRGRT: but i was wrong
    AranElus: so there!
    piccoloMRGRT: HAHAHAH
    AranElus: now that is weird
    piccoloMRGRT: well, i did, in a sense, cuz i hadn't heard it before
    piccoloMRGRT: but u thought of it first
    piccoloMRGRT: lol
    AranElus: it is mine:-)
    AranElus: but i allow you to use it
    piccoloMRGRT: =-Oi'll stare u down
    piccoloMRGRT: lol
    AranElus: because you are helping me
    piccoloMRGRT: so then hales started calling be BrinkerBopp
    AranElus: it is a pay-off
    piccoloMRGRT: hehe
    AranElus: hehe
    piccoloMRGRT: gee thanx
    piccoloMRGRT: lol
    AranElus: np
    AranElus: is OAC still going to happen?
    piccoloMRGRT: i don't know anymore
    AranElus: i think we should try
    AranElus: just to learn about the root of this strange entity
    piccoloMRGRT: yeah
    piccoloMRGRT: we'll see what happens this week
    AranElus: yeah
    piccoloMRGRT: if we find out info
    AranElus: i doubt i'm gong to find anything out due to my nature of being a 'ridiculously casual friend'
    AranElus: to lemur
    AranElus: so... you will be finding info, part will be finding info
    AranElus: i will be wondering what in hell is happening
    piccoloMRGRT: yeah
    piccoloMRGRT: i'll try to talk to her
    piccoloMRGRT: she has been saying she can't think about it anymore
    AranElus: her and the word 'can't'!
    AranElus: i want to punch her
    piccoloMRGRT: hehe
    AranElus: it's ridiculous
    piccoloMRGRT: i g2g
    AranElus: she's convincing herself she can't
    AranElus: alright
    AranElus: damn you
    piccoloMRGRT: haha
    AranElus: right when it's getting interesting
    piccoloMRGRT: lol
    AranElus: you shal lbe flogged
    piccoloMRGRT: i'll ttyl
    AranElus: after your done helping me
    AranElus: hehe
    piccoloMRGRT: hehe
    piccoloMRGRT: bye!
    AranElus: bye
    AranElus: good luck with lemur
    piccoloMRGRT signed off at 9:58:50 PM.
    Sunday, November 18th, 2001
    12:32 am
    oh my...
    jess lehman is... amazing.. i'm completely taken by her. It's so odd, she's cured my carrie-problem but she has made me like her in the process. At least it works with her so the more i learn about her the more i like her, whereas it turned out to be the more i learned about carrie, the less i wanted to like her but the more i actually did like her...

    anyhow:

    AranElus: sorry
    AranElus: computer spazzed
    beatlemania77: is ok
    AranElus: well, the point is...
    beatlemania77: yeah
    AranElus: i guess you are one of the coolest girls i've ever met
    AranElus: you are different and weird in all of the right ways
    beatlemania77: hehe
    AranElus: you aren't completely quirked out like Alex, but your not completely predictable either
    AranElus: and that makes you very cool
    beatlemania77: kewl
    AranElus: i don't know what you think of me...
    AranElus: and i don't know if i'll ever know
    AranElus: but now you know what i think of you...
    beatlemania77: yeah
    AranElus: and.. well... this probably has made you either very comfortable with me or very uncomfortable with me
    AranElus: but i felt the truth should be known
    beatlemania77: hehe
    AranElus: does any of what i've told you bother you?
    AranElus: tell the truth now...
    beatlemania77: not particularly
    AranElus: good
    AranElus: because i don't plan on lieing to you...
    AranElus: ever
    beatlemania77: ok
    beatlemania77: thats good
    AranElus: now that i've given you a ridiculous amount of power over me...
    AranElus: i don't know what to say
    beatlemania77: hehe
    beatlemania77: me neither
    AranElus: hmmm
    AranElus: what i'm ultimately working towards is asking you out...
    AranElus: i'm not asking you know
    AranElus: and i may not ask you for a few weeks
    AranElus: but now you know the future
    beatlemania77: ok
    AranElus: hopefully you won't use it against me
    beatlemania77: use it against u?
    AranElus: i don't know how you might
    AranElus: but it's possible
    beatlemania77: i dunno either
    AranElus: this is all so weird
    beatlemania77: what is?
    AranElus: this all just doesn't seem real...
    AranElus: i don't know why...
    beatlemania77: hehe
    AranElus: i didn't think i'd find someone like you until i got into colledge
    beatlemania77: hehe
    AranElus: whats cool about us is that we don't know each others past problems and what each othe rused to be like
    AranElus: so we can just know who we each are
    beatlemania77: yeah
    AranElus: thank you for saying 'hi' to me last weekend
    AranElus: i owe you greatly for doing that
    beatlemania77: hehe
    AranElus: you have changed so much... heh
    beatlemania77: np
    beatlemania77: how so?
    AranElus: you yourself haven't changed
    AranElus: i mean
    AranElus: you have changed so much of me
    beatlemania77: ok
    AranElus: tell me the truth, am i weirding you out?
    beatlemania77: no
    beatlemania77: you are not weirding me out
    AranElus: at all?
    beatlemania77: nope
    beatlemania77: not at all whatsoever
    AranElus: does it make you feel worse about me or better?
    beatlemania77: what
    AranElus: never mind that question
    beatlemania77: ok
    AranElus: i just feel as if i've added a serious note that you may not wnat
    beatlemania77: not particularly
    AranElus: i'm surprised that you sat through all of the what i've told you and not once said "are you sure you aren't out of your mind?"
    beatlemania77: hehe
    beatlemania77: brb
    beatlemania77: back
    AranElus: k
    beatlemania77: hi
    AranElus: yeah
    beatlemania77: my mom is spazzing
    beatlemania77: i gtg
    AranElus: about what?
    beatlemania77: i dunno
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: alright, i'll cya tommorrow?
    beatlemania77: shes like bla bla get in bed yur gunna sleep late
    beatlemania77: yeah
    beatlemania77: most likely
    beatlemania77: bye bye
    AranElus: cool
    AranElus: cya
    AranElus: sleep is good, anyhow :D
    beatlemania77: hhe
    beatlemania77: yeah
    beatlemania77: bye
    AranElus: bye
    Sunday, October 7th, 2001
    11:43 am
    happiness is a fish that i can't catch
    AranElus: have you told carrie/does she know that i'm 'over' her?
    pHiShGiRl001: dunno...she probably does not care
    AranElus: good
    AranElus: i'd like to start being friends with alex again...
    pHiShGiRl001: she is too happy about alex for anything to be meaningful anymore
    AranElus: cool
    AranElus: i figured that
    AranElus: looks like i did a good job =P
    AranElus: i'm happy that she's happy, but i don't know about alex
    AranElus: who knows what he thinks
    AranElus: i've been friends with him too long to take his appearances seriously
    pHiShGiRl001: i know what you mean
    pHiShGiRl001: but he seems pretty happy with this
    AranElus: i told him its great to have a girlfriend
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: i guess i have been proven right
    pHiShGiRl001: well...its been so long for you, how can you remeber? hehe j/k
    AranElus: i've had friends that had girlfriends
    pHiShGiRl001: you know better than most people it is not alwyas a picnic
    AranElus: yeah
    AranElus: hehe
    pHiShGiRl001: j/k? ya see that? means i am kidding
    AranElus: i know
    pHiShGiRl001: spokey dokey
    pHiShGiRl001: but seriously, how are you feeling?
    AranElus: well, i'll be there to pick up the pieces when they break up, but i'm not going to do anything regarding them until then
    pHiShGiRl001: i dont really think that they will be breaking up
    AranElus: who knows
    AranElus: alex may do something outstandingly stupid and out of character
    AranElus: he's done that before many times
    pHiShGiRl001: what do you know that we don't?
    pHiShGiRl001: spill it, come on, come on
    AranElus: i've been alex's best friend for 5 or so years
    AranElus: i know how he acts
    AranElus: sooner or later, she's going to get bored of his antics
    AranElus: i did
    pHiShGiRl001: i have known carrie for quite some time
    pHiShGiRl001: she really likes him
    AranElus: she really likes him now
    pHiShGiRl001: and she and you are not the same person
    AranElus: i know
    pHiShGiRl001: she has for a while
    AranElus: i'm not talking about the pst
    AranElus: *past
    AranElus: i'm talking about the future
    AranElus: do they kiss and crap outside of school?
    AranElus: i haven't seen them even touch each other more than once.
    pHiShGiRl001: yes, and she is completely faithful to anything she beleives in...and she completely beleives in alex
    AranElus: well, obviously
    pHiShGiRl001: they don't want to do stuff in public. they are taking it nice and slow
    AranElus: hehe
    pHiShGiRl001: what
    AranElus: alex is the immovable object and carrie is the irresistable force
    AranElus: no matter how much he lags, she likes him too much to let that affect her
    pHiShGiRl001: what are you talking about
    AranElus: arg
    pHiShGiRl001: what do you mean, he lags?
    AranElus: it is my opinion that alex has no idea how to be a 'boyfriend' because he has shut that side of life off for his enitre life
    AranElus: so he treats carrie like his best friend
    pHiShGiRl001: he has other friends!
    AranElus: i know
    pHiShGiRl001: and you don't just know how to be a boyfriend
    pHiShGiRl001: it comes with learinign
    AranElus: i know
    pHiShGiRl001: and he is doing that
    AranElus: hehe
    pHiShGiRl001: can we change the subject please
    AranElus: alright
    AranElus: but there isn't anything else interesting to talk about
    AranElus: i'd like to know what's going on, but i don't want to ask alex
    pHiShGiRl001: yes there is
    pHiShGiRl001: wait, wait: you still like her, dont you? and dont lie to me
    AranElus: hah... it's called "my best friend has got a girlfriend and acts weird around me and doesn't hang out with me, so i'd like to know what's going on"
    AranElus: it has nothing to do with her
    pHiShGiRl001: right. okay. but beleive me, that is how things work
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: Alex wouldn't tell me anything if i asked him, anyway
    pHiShGiRl001 signed off at 11:32:11 AM.
    pHiShGiRl001 signed on at 11:32:17 AM.
    pHiShGiRl001: sry
    pHiShGiRl001: got kiked off
    AranElus: let me clarify: I still find carrie attractive, i just don't want to be anything past a casual friend to her
    AranElus: np
    pHiShGiRl001: kay
    AranElus: do you understand that?
    pHiShGiRl001: yes
    pHiShGiRl001: god
    pHiShGiRl001: dont act like i am so stupid!
    AranElus: i don't like being so unfomfortable all the time
    AranElus: since she is in all of my classes
    AranElus: besides 2
    pHiShGiRl001: okay
    AranElus: i'd like to iron this whole situation out
    pHiShGiRl001: listen, i am sorry. that was out of line.
    AranElus: i haven't said anything to her in like 4 months
    AranElus: and i'd like to at least be able to talk to her every once in a while
    pHiShGiRl001: okay
    pHiShGiRl001: listen, that is not someting i have any control over
    pHiShGiRl001: you gotta talk to her...if you want to
    AranElus: do you think she'll have a negative reaction?
    pHiShGiRl001: i dont know
    pHiShGiRl001: everyone reacts differently to someone from their past popping up
    AranElus: i'd like to make things how they should be, instead of what they are
    AranElus: i.e. i can hang around alex when he's around carrie and she wouldn't have a problem
    pHiShGiRl001: and what should be and what should not be
    AranElus: and i wouldn't feel uncomfortable
    pHiShGiRl001: but that may never happen
    AranElus: it may never happen
    AranElus: there is still a chance it will, though
    pHiShGiRl001: yes always
    pHiShGiRl001: but not a very large one
    pHiShGiRl001: one little thing i gotta mention
    pHiShGiRl001: i dont know if carrie will ever forgive you
    AranElus: i'd like her to realize how much i've changed since that crap happened
    pHiShGiRl001: i know, but she may never
    pHiShGiRl001: do you want me to talk to her?
    AranElus: that would be helpful
    pHiShGiRl001: kay
    AranElus: she has to know it's not about her anymore
    AranElus: as far as i'm concerned
    AranElus: it's about alex
    pHiShGiRl001: okay
    pHiShGiRl001: listen, i gtg
    AranElus: alright, please try and talk to her.. and tell me when you do
    pHiShGiRl001: but we will continue this talk another time
    pHiShGiRl001: okay
    pHiShGiRl001 signed off at 11:42:25 AM.
    Sunday, September 30th, 2001
    3:05 pm
    AranElus: anyway...
    The Guru 320: uh huh
    AranElus: it's funny, because alex is an immobile object, dating wise
    AranElus: carrie was with him for a month, and hadn't kissed him/gotten kissed by him yet
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: according to what my mom says, carrie asked her mom if it's ok to kiss him
    The Guru 320: really?
    AranElus: hehe
    The Guru 320: i heard they do
    The Guru 320: heh
    AranElus: this was early september
    AranElus: they don't kiss in public...
    AranElus: heh
    The Guru 320: yeah, i know
    The Guru 320: actually, they show no affection whatsoever in public
    AranElus: what?
    AranElus: the hang out together at any possible time
    The Guru 320: yes
    AranElus: which makes it hard for me to hang out with alex
    The Guru 320: but no real hugging and stuff like that
    The Guru 320: me too
    The Guru 320: hehe
    AranElus: we should just hang around alex constantly
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: see what happens
    AranElus: we might end up in alex and carrie's group of friends if we did that
    The Guru 320: that'd be strange
    The Guru 320: yeah, we should cling to him
    AranElus: it'd be funny, as a social experiment
    AranElus: since i don't know if carrie still thinks i have anything for her (which i don't)
    AranElus: it'll be very interesting
    The Guru 320: yeh
    AranElus: i'd like to become friends with carrie so i can talk to her regarding al and tell her what's going on
    AranElus: and what she should do
    AranElus: because i've been friends with AL the longest of anyone
    AranElus: and i know
    AranElus: i know how to move the immobile
    The Guru 320: that's true
    AranElus: hell, i got them dating in the first place!
    The Guru 320: yeah
    AranElus: if i didn't talk to alex at that big sleepover (doing the bootcamp video), he would have never thought about going out with her
    AranElus: he would have "left it as it is", which was nothing... he definitely wouldn't have ever gone out with her if it wasn't for that midnight talk
    AranElus: hehe
    The Guru 320: heh
    AranElus: just to talk to carrie would satisfy me... i haven't said anything to her in 4 months
    The Guru 320: yeah
    The Guru 320: well, i've never even really spoken to her before
    The Guru 320: hehe
    AranElus: it pisses me off to not be able to hang out with one of my best friends because his girlfriend may have something against me
    AranElus: especially because i set them up to begin with
    AranElus: carrie should be thanking me =P
    AranElus: well, you had no reason to ever talk to her
    The Guru 320: true, true
    AranElus: hmm...
    AranElus: i should ask Al why he is so violent toward me now
    AranElus: he used to never be violent with me, but now it seems that has changed
    The Guru 320: nah, he's violent towards everyone
    The Guru 320: i guess it comes along with a relationship
    AranElus: he's trying to impress carrie
    AranElus: or himself
    AranElus: at my expense
    AranElus: which isn't fun for me
    AranElus: it looks as if i've created a monster
    AranElus: i wonder if Al feels anything for carrie...
    AranElus: or if he's just prosthetic
    The Guru 320: yeah
    AranElus: the only way to know would be to ask, but the chances of all telling the truth are probably smaller than his sexual desire.
    AranElus: hehe
    The Guru 320: heh
    AranElus: you know, after really thinking about haveing carrie as a girl-friend, i can't imagine it...
    AranElus: i don't know what it'd be like, at all
    AranElus: of course, i'd be a great boyfriend, but how in hell would it turn out?
    AranElus: what would happen?
    AranElus: i have no idea
    AranElus: strange thing: i'm in every one of carrie's classes (besides elective and language), and Al is in none of her classes this year
    AranElus: hehe
    The Guru 320: yeah, it actually is kinda hard to imagine if it all went well
    The Guru 320: yeah
    AranElus: hehe
    The Guru 320: they run into each other in the hall with a short "hi" and a wave
    AranElus: of course
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: i think i should talk to carrie some time monday or during that week
    AranElus: ask bridgette if carrie know's that i'm over her first
    AranElus: ... i don't want another blunder
    The Guru 320: yes, that would be something to avoid
    AranElus: hmm... my mom wants me to hook up with carrie, strangely enough
    AranElus: everything is so messed up
    The Guru 320: heh
    The Guru 320: nothing's the same old thing anymore
    AranElus: yeah
    AranElus: one of my best friends doesn't seem to be anymore, and Partho rules...
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: *partha
    AranElus: and so do you
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: but you don't have 40 million females hanging off of you at any given time
    The Guru 320: lol, yeah
    The Guru 320: but that's not neccessarily a bad thing... depending on who they are
    AranElus: (well, brittina counts as 39,999,995)
    The Guru 320: lol
    Friday, September 14th, 2001
    11:19 pm
    The Ultimate Summation of the Entire Situation With Carrie.... although it isn't, and may never be, complete
    THE CARRIE MANIFESTO
    (written early summer of 2001, never completed, may be continued)

    A FEW WORDS TO START
    Ohh carrie, you mustn't be so bind. Can't you just see the simple truths in front of you? Alex can never give you anything that you want. His own mental restrictions prevent him from even giving you any use of his sexuality and his physique. The chances of you ever even kissing him are very small, unless i have some say in it. There is no way that he will actually feel anything for you, you don't act in a way that would allow him to do so.

    You act in the natural feministic way: you surround yourself with friends and laugh at things that make no sense, even to you, but you laugh anyway. You don't put any thought into what you're talking about because you have already achieved your goal: you have provided a safety net for yourself that doesn't let people who aren't liked by your friends (although, to the best of my knowledge (however limited that may be) i am) to talk to you; you stop anyone from coming up and making conversation with you without arousing the curiosity of your friends. If it wasn't for this, i may have went up to you early this year (instead of sending you that _stupid_ poem) and talked to you, and maybe even have asked you out (although, in heinsight, that would've been a terrible blunder). But you succeeded in screening out your hope at finding any type of substantial, meaningful boyfriend-ish relationship, in throwing up your barrier against me. You were misled into believing that i was stalking you because of your own gender-related psychology.

    Alright, i must admit that i was rather over-the-top about you for a month and a half towards the end of the school-year; i did feel something for you, i don't know what it was. Was it love? obsession? stupidity? redirected loneliness (this is to be discussed later)? For a while there, i thought i actually loved you. Ohh, that was a terribly unfortunate blunder on my part. Even _thinking_ that should have set off a mental siren that says, "You are turning into an idiot, you must turn back now!", but no, i just continued being a stupid load of crap, being all over-romantic about you. I threw you into a terrible light: i thought of you as a beautiful (i still do think you are pretty, at least), and intelligent girl who knew what was giong on. Well, i was viciously misled in lattest of those. You hadn't the slightest idea of what was actually going on.

    "THE ILLNESS"
    I have referred to my past feelings for you as "the illness", "my affliction" or "my disease" for a few months now. It is _not_ because i was obssessed with you, or stalking you in a mentally ill way! You must remember this, it is extremely important that you are not misled again.

    I look at my liking for you as an evil thing that led me to follow evil temptations and to fulfill them (by giving you those stupid poems, for example). For a period of time, i threw all of the blame for this on you. I "hated" you for a short timespan; maybe 2 or 3 weeks, solely because of the situation that you and i put me in to. I was cursing your name and just making myself see you in an evil light for that time. I had no idea what i was really dealing with; with "my affliction". You see, the affliction that befell me was an odd affliction. It was an affliction of emotional proportions. Such afflictions are very dangerous because emotions are dangerous, therefor the apparent danger of an afflictions of emotions shows its head. But the head that is shown is not always an ugly, battered, scarred, and repulsive head. Sometimes it is a beautifully decked out head that is very beguiling and charming. The head of emotional affliction has many faces, and more than three quarters of them appear nice. This head of many faces has very long fangs. The very long fangs have potent poison, and all of this is protected by the illusional innocence of the face, and the armor of emotion it wears. As a knight would value his armor, this head values it's emotional shielding. The emotions prevent the affliction from being noticed: in my case it was masked by the "crush" emotional tag. That tag was a great camouflage for that evil beast that lurked within the external tranquillity of the head. The beast used the "crush" tag to tighten it's grip on me. It squeezed me and squeezed me, until i was close to emotional death (i.e. becoming VERY VERY depressed), but then i came to my own rescue and vanquished the disguise of this evil creature. I had him for sure! But no, i didn't have him. He was a slippery fellow. He changed shapes and colours, and never kept the same appearance for long enough for me to identify him. I chased him for a while. I tried not to succumb to any of his cleverly placed traps. A few did get me though. Your beauty, at that moment, was one of them. Your humanity was another. And your voice was yet another. The last nail in the coffin was your name. I'd have to say, of everything about you that i ever held sacred, your name was the biggest. I could say it, and when i did, i got a weird shock of realization: you exist; you are not a dream! you are no fantasy! you are a beautiful collection of brilliance that is here, in the flesh, for me to love, and find comfort in (in the future, hopefully). My realization was clouded by a fog of vapour that the head of my affliction spouted. I stumbled around in that fog; every once in a while, when i saw you, it would clear, and i'd go slipping and sliding back down into a "crush" emotional state. It was harder to climb back up, though, because the fog was there now. After many attempts i finally made it to the top, and i could finally look down on what was happening. This is the point where i am writing this manifesto.

    THE AFFLICTION
    Now we shall go back to the early months of school:
    I am liking you very much one night (thinking about how great it would be to be with you) and i found this song called "Closer to Believing" by Emerson, Lake, and Palmer (my fav band of all time) and as soon as i heard the lyrics i thought "ooh wow! this song is perfect for carrie!", so i went to my room (it was late), not knowing any of the words, and wrote a poem in the song's rhythm and rhyme. That poem was the one i gave to you. At that point i thought one of two things would come out of it: a. you liked me at the given time and would go up to me and tell me that you liked me, blah, blah, blah, and b. you would do what you did, but a little more expressively (not just "it was nice"). In fact, i have no idea if you even read the damn piece of garbage, but it doesn't matter now. I am quite ashamed of that poem, it was poorly contrived and i was way too optimistic when i wrote it. If i could turn back time, i would've never given it to you (and i would've made sure my parents never found a house in this town, so i wouldn't have to have put up with my stupid feelings).

    Now we shall leap to the post-middle of the school year:
    One fateful day i was talking with Sujoy over AIM (i told him all about how i liked you and all) and i was getting very depressed through talking about you and how foolish you seemed for not taking advantage of my liking for you. I got the ingenious idea of writing you a letter (mind you, this is at 4:30pm, so i'm pretty aware, and sane). I started writing it with no regard to the idea that you might believe that i am "stalking" you, so i kind of spilled my guts all over that horrific letter. I let all of my feelings go, but i kind of exaggerated some points to try and make it 'romantic' in a way. I showed about half of the letter to Suj and he thought it was an inspiring piece of work. I showed the same thing to my friend's girl-friend and she said, "_i_ would go out with you if you gave me that", so i was fairly encouraged, and i made myself resolute in that i'd give it to you. And so i did.
    I will take a brief instant to explain that when i came up next to you in that stairwell, i felt some weird sort of exhilaration in being that close to you; just standing beside you made me almost loose my feet. I was liking you alot at the time... So anyway, i figured you'd either respond by saying that you'd talk to me or that you don't want me anywhere near your life ever again. To tell you the truth, when i read your response in Engineering Drawing i laughed out loud to the point that Sujoy had to ask me, "what's up, man?" It really hit me weird (you have beautiful script, by the way). I went home, and i was kind of depressed about the whole situation, but it wore off after a while of thinking about how i could take advantage of the future.

    My plans regarding you and Alex:
    after i got your response to that letter, i began to think about you and Alex. I thought (at first), "Ohh yes! Two people who are perfectly cut out for each other!". This is why i started telling you stuff about Al (although i found it amusing that i, someone who wanted you, was giving you advice on how to get together with someone you wanted). My whole Al & Carrie contingency was this: If i could get you two together nice and fast, you would both get sick of each other in a short period of time (a few months, i figured), and i could pick up the pieces with you, and you would like me for helping me get you and Al together. This was all shattered soon, though.

    The worst day of the 2000-2001 school year:
    The night before the day of the band trip i decided to write a poem to you: trying to jar you up a bit, and inspire you to maybe start liking me, or at least to give me a chance. The poem was specifically designed as a good-bye type of poem ("this is my last devotion", etc.), but you just freaked when you saw it. I thought when i said "this is it" you would get the idea that THIS IS IT, but you didn't. You just sat there like a complete fool and said, "ooh look, he gave me another poem when i told him to stop writing letters: HE MUST BE STALKING ME!", and started crying.
    Now, let me paint a picture: i get my ohh-so-good italian hero w/ sweet peppers (yum) and i walk down that step inside marcs to be confronted by bridgette, who starts saying "Do you know what you did?!?" a couple of times, and then, after i say that i have no idea, she hits me with it, "Carrie thinks you're stalking her". Two things ran through my mind at that moment: 1. holy shit, i've ruined my life and my beloved's (well, i was head-over-heals for you at the time), and 2. poor carrie, i can't believe she's crying over something that she knows so little about. At that moment i felt genuinely sorry for you. I wanted to run into the band room and jump into a chair near you and just apologize for everything and clear away the slate. But, loe and behold, i couldn't, i just looked dumbfounded at bridgette and held myself back from crying. I then continued to fight back tears and went into the band locker room and angrily ate my sandwich, cursing your ignorance (YOU DIDN't EVEN READ THE DAMN POEM! according to bridgette), and the world in general. The rest of the day was spent trying to avoid you. I'm so sorry for putting you through that. I wish i never had given that to you. That is THE worst emotional torment i have went through in my life.

    MY ILLNESS TAKES ITS COURSE
    Even now i digress back to my previous stupidity. Dune has always had that effect on me. Those magnificent six books that i love so much. Ohh, they are so complex, and yet so simple; they expose so many unknown truths but divulge so many unknowns. I have two metaphors based upon those books, and they go as follows:

    Metaphor A:

    Hwi Noree - a brilliant and beutiful Ixian woman who was genetically engineered (in an odd way) out of the genes of her father, and former ambassador to the Lord Leto (the emporer of the known universe). She is engineered specifically to play off of the Lord Leto's major weakness: love. When she meets him, they both fall in love, against nature, and get married. She later seduces Duncan Idaho and has sex with him, something that the Lord Leto did not want.

    Hwi Noree is you.

    Leto Atreides (the Lord Leto, the God Emperor) - a 3,000 year old descendant of Paul Atreides, the Messiah of Dune (or Arrakis), who chooses to trade in his humanity to save humanity: he becomes a giant worm with the face of a human. The people of the million worlds that he rules treat him as a God and woship him and serve his every whim. He views himself as a 'holy obscenity'. He meets Hwi Noree and falls in love with her, against his worm body's abilities (his reproductive organs, along with the rest of his human organs have dissapeared).

    the Lord Leto is Alex.

    Duncan Idaho - a man who served Leto Atreides (the father of Paul Atreides), and Paul Atreides as their Swordsmaster. The Lord Leto has Duncan reproduced many times through cloning, and enjoys his company, although he is somewhat obsolete. Because of Leto's inability to have sex, Hwi seduces Duncan and fulfills her urge with him (although she is genuinely attracted to him, too, and they share a more human type of love). The Lord Leto decrees that they shall never see each other again.

    Duncan Idaho is me.

    Analysis:
    This metaphor fits my idea of what i was going to do to attract you for that twisted scheme of mine including Alex's and your break-up. You see, because Alex has extreme inhibitions about sex (and less than that, too), and can only offer you little in the love aspect, he kind of resembles Leto, though i doubt he could ever fall in _love_ with you. Because of this, you find me, someone who is attracted to you anyway (like Duncan). In the future (according to this metaphor) you and i will fall in love...and the rest i leave up to you.

    Metaphor B:

    Paul "Muad'Dib" Atreides - the 'messiah' of Dune, and the Kwisatz Hadarach (a male who has the abilities of the females of the Bene Gesserit...this takes alot of explaining, but it kind of makes him a miraculous-type messiah-type figure) who has come one generation before his time. His family takes control of Dune, and then they are attacked by their arch-nemesis, the Harkonnens, with the help of the Emperor (Shaddam V) and his elite shock troops, the Sardaukar. Paul and his mother, the lady Jessica, are forced to leave the capital city of Arrakeen and try to survive. They find the fremen, the native human inhabitants of Dune, and convince them to let them live among them. In the Fremen seitch that Paul and Jessica are brought to, there is a female named Chani, who Paul has seen in a dream before. In the dream she asks him, "Tell me again about the waters of your homeworld, Muad'Dib", while they are inside of a large cavern. Paul falls in love with Chani, and she falls in love with him, they wed and live happily for some time.

    I am Paul.

    Chani - The daughter of Liet Kynes (the Imperial Planetologist) and a fremen women, who lives on Dune, and meets and falls in love with Paul.

    You are Chani.

    Analysis:
    This one is noticeably much more direct. The major, and weird relation is that Chani asks Paul about the waters, and in the first dream that i had with you in it (in sixth grade), I saw you in a pool-type thing. This one also tells of us getting together at one point.

    THE ILLNESS IN THE EYES OF A BAD DOCTOR
    I pity the fools who disillusion themselves with sex. They use it with 'love' in a rather pitiful and ugly way. They think that sex has something to do with love. Ohh no it does not. The sheer stupidity of the people who think sex and love go in the same breath are fools. You must understand, though, that the love of which i talk is love between yourself and one who isn't a blood relative. I'm talking about the love of a man and a woman that bonds them together out of nothing for no obvious reason on occasion.

    Love is essentially the need for someone's presence. The addiction to someone else that manifests itself in the forms of kissing, touching, hugging, etc. You may read this and find it repulsive. "Addiction" you say, with venom in your voice, "How can he say that something as beautiful of love is an 'addiction'? He is either a genious, or an absolute inadept." I assure you, i am the earlier, not the latter. I may also say that love is unnecessary and misleading. Although it can strengthen someone, it also weakens them, all the same. Yet it is the essence of humanity, love, and without it, some believe that we would not be human. Let me bring to your attention that to be human, is not to have humanity. I, personally, dislike humanity, although humans can be uplifting and provide entertainment upon occasion. I believe that humanity is emotions. Not only emotions, but emotions that are highly considered when making important decisions. Constantly, people are blinded by emotions and are led in the wrong directions. The might choose to be with someone they have a foolish emotion towards as opposed to being with someone with whom they share some of the better times. Humans should not use their emotions to directly guide their actions in life. Emotions are best left as a datum that goes into the equation which produces good decisions.

    Now i shall go back to sex and love. Love needs to be an attachment to a person that is not only physical, but intellectual and emotional. If someone loves for the body of the other person, they are a misled incompetent (if they don't realize it). Love needn't be based _at all_ upon the physical aspects. Some of the best love episodes that i've seen have been with people who are completely emotional and intellectually intertwined. Now, if it is pleasing to you, you can substitute 'soul' for 'emotional and intellectual' when i discuss love. I don't believe in the 'soul' of a person. I don't think that people have 'souls'. 'Souls' are a cheap way of providing a label for a mental part of humanity, consciousness, that needn't be further mysticized. The emotional and intellectual involvement in a relationship must supercede the sexual involvement in a relationship in order for it to work or go anywhere over a long period of time. I have nothing against those who seek sex just for the pleasure, for those people embody humanity at it's basest sense: unclouded by the modern fog that has been containing the true human nature of people for a long time. Well, my point, in short, is: Don't love someone's body, love them for who they are and how they are and what they are. If there is something wrong, it is not because they are not good for you, it is because they are human, and to not have a flaw would make them inhuman, and would provide you with an even bigger obstacle to try to get by in order to love them. Humans love humans because of humanity. You should not deny your humanity; you should work with it to try and achieve your goals.

    THE ILLNESS: LOOKING DOWN FROM ABOVE
    I think that one of my livejournal entries covers this pretty well? In the lack of motivation I will just quote it:
    "It all has to do with the fact that i am tremendously lonely? my best-friends (not counting amanda) are slowly sliding away from me... i have no one to talk to anymore, i just sit here on this damn computer and talk to people that i'll never meet (besides eric). Since i was so lonely (and still am, partly) i needed a target to point all this loneliness at, and that target was carrie.. i don't know why my sub-conscious decided that carrie would be a good decision.. i don't like her that much besides the feelings i used to have. This loneliness was channeled into my feelings for carrie (if they were obsessive or whatnot, it doesn't matter now, b/c i feel next to nothing for her now), and so i got all romantic (unfortunately, she thought i was stalking her) and gave her two poems and a page long note about the "love" (what a misused word) that i thought i had for her at the time. It was really just me, venting out my loneliness on her... if only me and her actually clicked somewhat, i would be happy, and she would to. I am an extremely loyal and honorable person to my friends, and with carrie, i would be so ridiculously loyal and sweet to her, she would love it. Too bad that she took everything i did the wrong way..."

    Current Music: "Right Behind You" - Our Lady Peace
    Thursday, September 6th, 2001
    10:34 pm
    controlling the world is not easy
    although you may think it is.
    To permeate every life makes me queasy
    and to feel your strife makes me ill.

    Can you, can i, can we, can he
    if i could than i would but i can't
    so why won't you let me be?
    why won't you see the world outside?

    serious reminders remind me of today
    and today that i found under
    the shed of my troubles is contrary
    to the life of the worm of my mind.

    broken words that analog
    something incomprehensible
    blinkity blink and winkity wink
    words are gone: dispensible.

    Consideration is my alliby
    and my song is of yesterday.
    i yell out the future's cry
    and i smell the stench of dirty laundry.
    10:26 pm
    Happiness is not a fish you can catch (but you can catch a cold... that's another story)
    subtleties:

    you know, i don't understand it. Everyone has their own little underbreath things that they are saying that you cannot hear and cannot comprehend because it is in a different language that you can and will never be able to understand. The language is a language of pharamones and emotions that is infinitely difficult to translate into something in english. The only way to know the language is to know what is being said without it being said and without you translating. The material must be taken raw from the source and digested as such. If one tries to flip it around into something that they see as understandable the reasoning and the reason is bound to be lost forever and that phrase of pharamonic and emotional expression is meaningless because of the translation. THe translation unjustifies the message and falsifies it because it is trying to fit, in essance, a square into a circular hole. Translation distorts and contorts the meaning of the language; it makes the language a non-entity in the mind of the translator and destroys the message that is being sent.

    Subtleties of conversion are to be known.

    Anway, to my life again...
    Recently i have been wondering if carrie still thinks that i'm stalking her. I don't think that she is still be so misled. I think that she has finaly turned around and realized that i was just trying to be romantic and she thought too much of it.
    I'd love to talk to her thorugh some non-confrontational means, but i'm not sure if one exists. hmmm, ohh well. maybe some day i'll get up the guts to ask her if she'd mind if i were to call her and straighten things out, but i still don't trust her.

    Life is hell, and i'm not happy yet.
    Saturday, September 1st, 2001
    11:12 pm
    news update
    carrie and alex are going out and i'm happy about that. Also, carrie has eased up about me and doesn't seem to be running from me at all, anymore.

    alright, i may start posting more often, but prolly not, because i have barely enough time to exist, let alone write in some unimportant text box...
    11:10 pm
    AranElus: hey
    BindiBhagi: hey
    AranElus: hehe, i heard that Carrie got dissapointed with Al because he didn't spend enough time with her
    AranElus: already, the deterioration
    AranElus: and the realization of the fact that Al is far from the perfect person that he appears to be.
    BindiBhagi: you know what I learned this summer?
    AranElus: what?
    BindiBhagi: most highschool relationships never get deep and are short
    AranElus: did your's with Margo go south again?
    AranElus: to Cuba?
    AranElus: hehe
    BindiBhagi: and then you have Sara Pursell and Ross Trelor
    BindiBhagi: who have been going out since 7th or 8th grade
    BindiBhagi: no
    BindiBhagi: it's doing great
    AranElus: cool
    BindiBhagi: just that...
    BindiBhagi: oh...
    BindiBhagi: right..
    BindiBhagi: I never told you...
    BindiBhagi: I never really told anyone
    BindiBhagi: Maddy
    AranElus: hmmmm?
    BindiBhagi: I went out with her for a short time...
    AranElus: who might she be?
    BindiBhagi: she's a freshman in my sax section
    AranElus: hmm
    BindiBhagi: she's really nice
    AranElus: but.....
    BindiBhagi: things just weren't working out as far as going out
    AranElus: you and margo where best friends
    AranElus: and it was good
    AranElus: and you two lasted because of that.
    BindiBhagi: yeah
    BindiBhagi: and there just wasn't a real something there with Maddy
    AranElus: yeah
    AranElus: no click
    BindiBhagi: and we enver really got to be together because no classes and one of us was usually busy when we didn't
    AranElus: hm
    AranElus: see, the problem with Al is that he treats having a girlfriend like having a friend and not like having a girlfriend at all, which is the opposite of what carrie wants/wanted
    BindiBhagi: ah..
    AranElus: she saw his physicality and insanity and thought of herself.
    AranElus: she saw herself in those traits in him
    AranElus: but they are so different
    AranElus: under the skin
    BindiBhagi: hm
    AranElus: it is my belief that i am much more like carrie than she could ever know unless we were to talk
    AranElus: although likeness never gaurantees anything
    AranElus: carrie and i used to be mirror images of each other
    AranElus: and niether of us realized it...
    AranElus: we always ended up in situations together
    BindiBhagi: erg..
    BindiBhagi: umm
    AranElus: through some weird circumstance
    BindiBhagi: I'mm brb
    AranElus: alright
    BindiBhagi: I'll... brb
    BindiBhagi signed off at 11:03:25 PM.
    Wednesday, August 15th, 2001
    5:34 pm
    idiots permeate all aspects of life.
    This is hilarious, to me, it shows how stupid some peopple are. I played with this kids head very easily, and he wouldn't listen when i told him the "truth" about his "soul". He acted like he was trying to hide that i was telling the truth.. i prolly was... ohh well. A very amusing convo:

    g0ogLes: my game is coming ouyt for x-box
    AranElus: yeah, right
    g0ogLes: my dad is firends with bill gates
    g0ogLes: once its done it will be out on x-box
    g0ogLes: my dads buying me my own team
    AranElus: shut up
    g0ogLes: huh?
    g0ogLes: about what?
    g0ogLes: its true dude
    g0ogLes: x-box uses direct x
    AranElus: where do you live?
    g0ogLes: i live in florida
    g0ogLes: why?
    AranElus: i don't know...
    AranElus: i'm talking to like 4 ppl right now, so i kinda forgot what i was getting at
    g0ogLes: god you beliove everything i say...
    AranElus: not even god believes what you say
    AranElus: unfortunately...
    AranElus: he just informed me
    g0ogLes: oh...may god have mercy on your soul
    AranElus: hah
    AranElus: how often do you go to church?
    g0ogLes: never
    g0ogLes: anymopre
    AranElus: good
    AranElus: churches are evil places
    g0ogLes: you dont like god?
    AranElus: i don't like churches... god is a good friend of mine...
    AranElus: we play billiards on sundays
    g0ogLes: ...i think that your dog..........
    AranElus: he's a rather nice fellow once you get to know him..
    g0ogLes: that u like to rape
    AranElus: shut up
    AranElus: you don't know what your talking about.
    g0ogLes: i know
    g0ogLes: your right
    AranElus: jeez, it's difficult being a messiah.
    g0ogLes: i dont
    g0ogLes: messiah?
    AranElus: yes...
    g0ogLes: wtf is that
    AranElus: the savior of human kind.. like Jesus, but with an attitude.
    g0ogLes: ......................................
    AranElus: Jesus did a bad job of saving humanity though...
    AranElus: he's been having some domestic disputes with God lately.
    AranElus: it's not the most pleasant thing to witness
    g0ogLes signed off at 5:21:02 PM.
    g0ogLes signed on at 5:21:07 PM.
    g0ogLes: hi
    AranElus: aloa
    g0ogLes: suP?
    AranElus: nothin' much
    g0ogLes: cool\
    AranElus: are you the same person as the one i talked to just before you signed off then on?
    g0ogLes: hu?
    AranElus: is your father friends with bill gates?
    g0ogLes: no
    g0ogLes: what do you mena?
    AranElus: whoever was on as you before said that his father was friends with bill gates
    AranElus: he was obviously lieing
    AranElus: do you know what messiah means?
    g0ogLes: wtf? probly my best friend
    g0ogLes: no what is that?
    AranElus: ask you "best friend".
    AranElus: i told him..
    g0ogLes: k
    g0ogLes signed off at 5:25:57 PM.
    g0ogLes signed on at 5:26:42 PM.
    AranElus: who are you?
    g0ogLes: mathar facker
    AranElus: anser my question
    g0ogLes: what questionnnn
    AranElus: i know you fuck your mother.. just stop being a jackass
    AranElus: are you the person i talked to about messiah's
    g0ogLes: you know u fuck your dog
    AranElus: no i don't...
    g0ogLes: yea
    AranElus: that must be a different me.
    AranElus: i am everywhere.
    AranElus: i see everything.
    g0ogLes: what am i wearing?
    g0ogLes: what color shirt?
    AranElus: that is irrevelant
    AranElus: i don't see you physically, i see your soul.
    g0ogLes: THEN SHADAP
    g0ogLes: what color shirt is my soul whearing?
    AranElus: i can see your conceited innards that you try to hide
    AranElus: but you show them when you use your best friend's AIM SN to annoy people
    AranElus: and insult them.
    g0ogLes: oh really? ::cough:: lame ::cough::
    AranElus: who is lame here?
    AranElus: how do you know i am wrong?
    g0ogLes: ylu
    g0ogLes: ::cough:: lame ::cough::
    AranElus: shut your face.
    AranElus: you don't know bullshit.
    g0ogLes: ::cough:: lame ::cough::
    AranElus: hehe.
    AranElus: you're just making yourself out to be an idiot.
    g0ogLes signed off at 5:31:53 PM.
    Tuesday, August 14th, 2001
    10:55 am
    This is one of the funniest AIM convos i have ever had, and i had it a few mins ago... most of the humour is based upon bold words... but i think you'll get the drift.

    AranElus: aloa
    quietestmouse: hii
    AranElus: are you having trouble with your e-mail server?
    AranElus: Outlook's having trouble contacting narnu
    quietestmouse: not yet, i probably will be. i haven't been able to ftp anything in tonight
    quietestmouse: no, the email's fine
    quietestmouse: *just checked*
    AranElus: for the past 3 days i've been having trouble...
    AranElus: ag
    quietestmouse: : \
    quietestmouse: damn narisma server
    quietestmouse: i uploaded the new layout earlier, no problems, and now it's being all stupid
    quietestmouse: haven't been having problems at all with email, though
    AranElus: that's a nice layout, btw
    quietestmouse: thank ya
    AranElus: the thing you did with th epic of your street looks cool... looks professional.. heh
    quietestmouse: yaay
    AranElus: it seems as if you are dwelling on your insanity, though
    quietestmouse: i'm glad, i was trying to fade the light greyish original background into the white that i wanted subtly.
    quietestmouse: how so? :p
    quietestmouse: i didn't think i did too much this time
    AranElus: well... you talk about it much more.. now you seem more insane than geeky in this format
    quietestmouse: lol
    AranElus: and that is a decidedly bad thing
    AranElus: some of your drawings are amazing, also...
    AranElus: i thought one of them was a photograph...
    quietestmouse: i put on more of an act in the past, the little happy go lucky dorky amanda act, which is not a cool act when it isn't true. not that there's anything wrong with the persona, it's allowed me to gain many friends, but it isn't quite me. this layout was me, the writing was me, and that makes me feel proud of it that i can do that now.
    quietestmouse: thank you. : o
    AranElus: it is more you-ish than previous versions... and i like it, but others might take it the wrong way... but, on second though, that doesn't matter
    quietestmouse: others can take it however they like, heh. :p i'm just so tired of making layouts with an audience in mind like i used to, i decided now, screw the audience, make whatever the hell you want, amanda, as long as you like it.
    quietestmouse: also i talk to myself more, and out loud. :p
    AranElus: now THAT is cool.
    AranElus: hehe
    quietestmouse: i may have to post this on my livejournal, just to warn you. :p
    AranElus: this convo?
    quietestmouse: si si
    AranElus: cookl
    AranElus: i mean, cool
    quietestmouse: it works well with my previous about the page
    AranElus: posting convos = fun-fun-silly-willy
    quietestmouse: i think i will, but i'll clip off this part
    quietestmouse: lol, you're talking like mel now
    AranElus: alright
    AranElus: i post convos lots now..
    AranElus: i think i'll post this one also...
    quietestmouse: she and her best friend christina came over today and we had mucho fun
    AranElus: unedited
    quietestmouse: yaaay
    quietestmouse: posting convos is good stuff
    AranElus: and i initiated the craze
    AranElus: i feel so special.... or not
    AranElus: whatev
    quietestmouse: feel special, you never know when you might be able to again. :p
    AranElus: fun-fun-silly-willy is my word. DAMNIT!
    AranElus: hehe
    quietestmouse: i thought it was a melissa word. :p
    quietestmouse: she doesn't use it much anymore, though
    AranElus: ohh well, it don't matter
    quietestmouse: it can be both your words
    AranElus: we can have joint custody of "fun-fun-silly-willy"
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: the legallity is disturbing
    quietestmouse: so who pays child support, and when do you get visitation?
    quietestmouse: very
    AranElus: I get visitation whenever i want to, dammit.
    AranElus: I guess that means i pay child-support... screwed again.
    AranElus: hehe
    quietestmouse: you go! fight for your rights!
    quietestmouse: well, it's a small price to pay...
    quietestmouse: i almost said you go girl because i get so used to it, but i slapped myself out of it. *nodnod*
    AranElus: for a word with three hyphons, 'tis a small price to pay
    AranElus: hey, this convo is getting interesting...
    AranElus: now that i've jinxed it.
    AranElus: too bad
    quietestmouse: hey, i thought it was interesting before. sniff sniff. don't mind me.
    AranElus: maybe i will... but... on second thought...
    AranElus: dammit, nevermind.
    quietestmouse: ok
    quietestmouse: whatever you say
    quietestmouse: it's been a long day
    quietestmouse: i'm a poet and i didn't even know it
    quietestmouse: oh dear.
    quietestmouse: now i'm just taking this too far
    AranElus: oh my
    quietestmouse: no turning back now, wilson
    quietestmouse: wilson!
    quietestmouse: spalding!
    quietestmouse: *dies*
    quietestmouse: now that's entertainment
    quietestmouse: not really
    AranElus: *places flowers on grave*
    AranElus: *snif*
    quietestmouse: damn, i must be irritating
    AranElus: that's like de-entertainment
    AranElus: you've just ruined my life.
    AranElus: *cry*
    quietestmouse: oh my. another innocent life, stained. i should be ashamed of myself.
    AranElus: or we should have a twister party...
    AranElus: either one would suffice
    quietestmouse: i had to explain a dirty joke to a friend. it felt so wrong, considering she's had more experience than i have.
    quietestmouse: twister party would be good.
    AranElus: yes.
    quietestmouse: i've only played twister with little kids lately, which sucks because they're horrible at it and it's too easy for me to win.
    AranElus: decision: twister party beats being ashamed of yourself. Judgement is to the plaintiff.
    quietestmouse: haha. sounds nice and guilt free to me
    AranElus: $6000 dollars.
    AranElus: in mental damages =P
    quietestmouse: lmao
    quietestmouse: how about i just leave the country?
    quietestmouse: and pass my debt on to a charitable organization?
    AranElus: you can never escape them.
    quietestmouse: oh dear.
    quietestmouse: that is true
    AranElus: they will get you...
    quietestmouse: well. it depends on who they are.
    AranElus: they will make their name bold until you beg them to stop.
    quietestmouse: who exactly is this they you are referring to?
    AranElus: duh duh duhhhhhhhh
    quietestmouse: hey. don't mock bold. bold is your friend.
    quietestmouse: and don't you forget it
    AranElus: ohh, you must know about them.
    quietestmouse: oh, i do.
    quietestmouse: but i wish i didn't.
    AranElus: they permeate all aspects of your life.
    quietestmouse: they are the scourge of human existance.
    AranElus: they are none other than microsoft.
    quietestmouse: but now... i have said too much.
    quietestmouse: lmao
    quietestmouse: yes
    quietestmouse: they are them, indeed.
    AranElus: they are themselves so we should let them be them and let them do what they wish.
    AranElus: pressing cntrl-b is difficult when you are doing it ever other word...
    quietestmouse: yes. because we enjoy our personal freedoms just as much as they do.
    AranElus: but it is what they require.
    quietestmouse: i just do < b >
    quietestmouse: it is.
    quietestmouse: and we must respect their wishes
    AranElus: so it is unfortunate for us.
    quietestmouse: le sigh
    AranElus: or we will be hunted like animals by their evil bugs in their terrible OS's
    quietestmouse: i always wanted to use that [le sigh] but never got around to it
    quietestmouse: ooh. it didn't work for you?
    quietestmouse: odd
    AranElus: damnit
    AranElus: look what they have done!
    quietestmouse: i guess you'll have to use the long way
    AranElus: my life is ruined!
    quietestmouse: they obviously hate you.
    quietestmouse: i'm sorry mike.
    AranElus: they are out to get me.
    quietestmouse: you are not one of the ones chosen by them
    AranElus: uh oh, they are at my door...
    AranElus: *shrivels up into a little ball and cowers in terror of them*
    AranElus: i hope that they don't destroy this conversation.
    quietestmouse: they will find you.
    quietestmouse: no matter where you hide.
    AranElus: they show no remorse
    quietestmouse: they will do anything in their power to get their desired ends.
    AranElus: Bill Gates is in league with satan.
    quietestmouse: !!! satan. must be bold.
    AranElus: ohh no! here they come...
    quietestmouse: bill gates and satan are the same entity, are they not?
    quietestmouse: just in two bodies
    quietestmouse: they are evil. personified. computerized. and incinerated.
    AranElus: satan is actually controlling the body of bill gates although bill gates is far more evil.
    quietestmouse: i'd say they are about equal.
    quietestmouse: i wouldn't want to encourage competition between them
    AranElus: because bill gates monopolizes everything...
    AranElus: he may even monopolize hell.
    quietestmouse: and satan's got the market down on sinners.
    quietestmouse: he most certainly may.
    AranElus: i think that he has.
    AranElus: alright, maybe we should end this convo on a good, comical note.
    AranElus: and stop talken about them now.
    quietestmouse: yes, i think that's a good plan.
    quietestmouse: because by talking about them, we give them exactly what they want.
    AranElus: so, copy and paste this into livejournal.
    quietestmouse: and besides, the comedy here is based totally on use of bold.
    AranElus: ture
    AranElus: !!! ugh !!! bill gates has control of the typo demon and he has unleashed it on me!
    quietestmouse: aaaah!
    quietestmouse: *runs for her life*
    quietestmouse: *and her computer*
    AranElus: go to your homes, children!
    AranElus: *runs to get some icecream*
    quietestmouse: step away from your mice and keyboards!
    AranElus: yum.... icecream
    quietestmouse: i think i have barbeque potato chips.
    AranElus: ahhh!
    AranElus: ooooooo!
    quietestmouse: mmm... melissa brought me over *lime tortia chips* today. and didn't spell that right, but it's ok. they were delicious
    AranElus: ohh, yeah? well i have SOUR CREAM AND ONION! beat that!
    quietestmouse: um, excuse me
    quietestmouse: barbeque beats sour cream and onion any day
    AranElus: SOUR CREAM AND ONION is invincible.
    quietestmouse: i'm sorry.
    quietestmouse: you're obviously delusioinal
    quietestmouse: i think you need to be taken to a taste specialist
    AranElus: yes...immediately
    AranElus: i need toungue evaluation.
    AranElus: we need toungueologists.
    quietestmouse: tasteologists
    quietestmouse: asdfjaskdlfjaslkdfologists
    AranElus: ;lajksdfl;ajsdfl;ajsfd;lajsdflkjologists
    AranElus: and so begins a battle of one-up-manship that will finally spiral into catastrophe when one of their computers overheats and blows a hole in the ground where their house once stood
    quietestmouse: fucking livejournal. the internet obviously hates me tonight. *potty mouth*
    quietestmouse: hahaha. i have no desire to compete further, sorry to ruin your fun.
    quietestmouse: i would rather focus my attacks on *livejournal*, who is having an outage. adfjaksldjfkasldjfalksdjflaskdjfalksdjflkajsdflkadsjfkldsj.
    quietestmouse: take that, you damn outage
    AranElus: that's because i enlightened you as to the outcome of your actions.
    quietestmouse: it did let me post a message, but i can't see it.
    quietestmouse: yes
    AranElus: I am the amazing oracle announcer voice, bow before me!
    quietestmouse: dude. i didn't mean to say dude, but it's too late now. ok. erin and i were trying to use a ouija board, and it wouldn't work, we have to try to contact someone next time i see you or whatever. yeah.
    AranElus: yeah, d00t.
    AranElus: 3l33t.
    AranElus: hah!
    quietestmouse: that sounded so teenager. dear lord what have i become. and why am i adressing dear lord as an atheist?
    quietestmouse: aah
    quietestmouse: dan does that when he wants to be funny
    AranElus: you evil, evil individual.
    quietestmouse: & it's not funny, i'm sorry.
    quietestmouse: his sarcasm needs work.
    AranElus: yes!
    AranElus: This is an amazing convo!
    quietestmouse: it is.
    AranElus: hilarity at it's fineset.
    quietestmouse: wow.
    quietestmouse: i haven't seen the likes of it since melissa and co left
    quietestmouse: and that was in person
    quietestmouse: online convos are... different.
    quietestmouse: we did get a video, though.
    AranElus: hilarity is much more dificult online.
    quietestmouse: it really is
    quietestmouse: because you automatically have the monotone voice
    AranElus: but we have achieved it.
    quietestmouse: and you have to take it from thre
    quietestmouse: yes!
    quietestmouse: we are evil geniuses
    quietestmouse: just like bill gates
    AranElus: we are the champions of the universe!.... or justmy back yard..
    quietestmouse: and satan
    AranElus: i think my back yard will do.
    quietestmouse: or my gazebo and black top
    quietestmouse: how about the high school?
    AranElus: satan will own you gazebo, and change it into a gazebo:-)
    AranElus: i mean.... !
    quietestmouse: i am a cool senior this year. i rool the skool.
    quietestmouse: i also cannot spell.
    quietestmouse: la la la
    quietestmouse: wow. so like, satan can make things stay the same? that's some heavy stuff.
    AranElus: d00d, u did it all rong: i r00l da sk00l.
    quietestmouse: i am so sorry.
    AranElus: no! he can make them bold!
    AranElus: an amazing power that we will never be able to comprehend
    quietestmouse: i am not as l33t as you k00l hackerz
    quietestmouse: it is amazing.
    AranElus: it is too unbelievable for us simple minded humans to even try to understand.
    AranElus: wil the hilarity ever end!?
    quietestmouse: the inner workings of the bold function may never be fully comprehended.
    quietestmouse: we can only stare with wonder
    quietestmouse: when i get off the computer to go to bed. :p
    quietestmouse: which is when my mothers friend leaves
    quietestmouse: which is probably soon
    AranElus: that sucks...
    AranElus: i was hoping that we could r00l the w0r1d.
    quietestmouse: yeep. but i need my ugly sleep. ha ha ha. that wasn't funny, therefore i needed to laugh.
    quietestmouse: we'll have to save that for tomorrow
    quietestmouse: or the next day
    AranElus: or..... umm....
    AranElus: [insert funny timespan here]
    quietestmouse: after i get my drivers licence *loud dramatic music* or fail the test. damn.
    AranElus: hmm
    AranElus: i think we should end this convo now, as to preserve the good vibes
    AranElus: and the good humor
    quietestmouse: sounds like a good plan
    quietestmouse: didn't you suggest that earlier?
    AranElus: so maybe it will carry over into the next one.
    quietestmouse: oh well.
    quietestmouse: i ruined it.
    AranElus: yes, you did!
    quietestmouse: you may post it to your livejournal if you like
    AranElus: well...
    AranElus: i shall..
    AranElus: i've gotta sleep... bye
    quietestmouse: i'm sorry. i'm going to go cry in my corner now.
    quietestmouse: good.
    quietestmouse: byebye
    Monday, August 13th, 2001
    11:23 pm
    This is one of the funniest AIM convos i have ever had, and i had it a few mins ago... most of the humour is based upon bold words... but i think you'll get the drift.

    AranElus: aloa
    quietestmouse: hii
    AranElus: are you having trouble with your e-mail server?
    AranElus: Outlook's having trouble contacting narnu
    quietestmouse: not yet, i probably will be. i haven't been able to ftp anything in tonight
    quietestmouse: no, the email's fine
    quietestmouse: *just checked*
    AranElus: for the past 3 days i've been having trouble...
    AranElus: ag
    quietestmouse: : \
    quietestmouse: damn narisma server
    quietestmouse: i uploaded the new layout earlier, no problems, and now it's being all stupid
    quietestmouse: haven't been having problems at all with email, though
    AranElus: that's a nice layout, btw
    quietestmouse: thank ya
    AranElus: the thing you did with th epic of your street looks cool... looks professional.. heh
    quietestmouse: yaay
    AranElus: it seems as if you are dwelling on your insanity, though
    quietestmouse: i'm glad, i was trying to fade the light greyish original background into the white that i wanted subtly.
    quietestmouse: how so? :p
    quietestmouse: i didn't think i did too much this time
    AranElus: well... you talk about it much more.. now you seem more insane than geeky in this format
    quietestmouse: lol
    AranElus: and that is a decidedly bad thing
    AranElus: some of your drawings are amazing, also...
    AranElus: i thought one of them was a photograph...
    quietestmouse: i put on more of an act in the past, the little happy go lucky dorky amanda act, which is not a cool act when it isn't true. not that there's anything wrong with the persona, it's allowed me to gain many friends, but it isn't quite me. this layout was me, the writing was me, and that makes me feel proud of it that i can do that now.
    quietestmouse: thank you. : o
    AranElus: it is more you-ish than previous versions... and i like it, but others might take it the wrong way... but, on second though, that doesn't matter
    quietestmouse: others can take it however they like, heh. :p i'm just so tired of making layouts with an audience in mind like i used to, i decided now, screw the audience, make whatever the hell you want, amanda, as long as you like it.
    quietestmouse: also i talk to myself more, and out loud. :p
    AranElus: now THAT is cool.
    AranElus: hehe
    quietestmouse: i may have to post this on my livejournal, just to warn you. :p
    AranElus: this convo?
    quietestmouse: si si
    AranElus: cookl
    AranElus: i mean, cool
    quietestmouse: it works well with my previous about the page
    AranElus: posting convos = fun-fun-silly-willy
    quietestmouse: i think i will, but i'll clip off this part
    quietestmouse: lol, you're talking like mel now
    AranElus: alright
    AranElus: i post convos lots now..
    AranElus: i think i'll post this one also...
    quietestmouse: she and her best friend christina came over today and we had mucho fun
    AranElus: unedited
    quietestmouse: yaaay
    quietestmouse: posting convos is good stuff
    AranElus: and i initiated the craze
    AranElus: i feel so special.... or not
    AranElus: whatev
    quietestmouse: feel special, you never know when you might be able to again. :p
    AranElus: fun-fun-silly-willy is my word. DAMNIT!
    AranElus: hehe
    quietestmouse: i thought it was a melissa word. :p
    quietestmouse: she doesn't use it much anymore, though
    AranElus: ohh well, it don't matter
    quietestmouse: it can be both your words
    AranElus: we can have joint custody of "fun-fun-silly-willy"
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: the legallity is disturbing
    quietestmouse: so who pays child support, and when do you get visitation?
    quietestmouse: very
    AranElus: I get visitation whenever i want to, dammit.
    AranElus: I guess that means i pay child-support... screwed again.
    AranElus: hehe
    quietestmouse: you go! fight for your rights!
    quietestmouse: well, it's a small price to pay...
    quietestmouse: i almost said you go girl because i get so used to it, but i slapped myself out of it. *nodnod*
    AranElus: for a word with three hyphons, 'tis a small price to pay
    AranElus: hey, this convo is getting interesting...
    AranElus: now that i've jinxed it.
    AranElus: too bad
    quietestmouse: hey, i thought it was interesting before. sniff sniff. don't mind me.
    AranElus: maybe i will... but... on second thought...
    AranElus: dammit, nevermind.
    quietestmouse: ok
    quietestmouse: whatever you say
    quietestmouse: it's been a long day
    quietestmouse: i'm a poet and i didn't even know it
    quietestmouse: oh dear.
    quietestmouse: now i'm just taking this too far
    AranElus: oh my
    quietestmouse: no turning back now, wilson
    quietestmouse: wilson!
    quietestmouse: spalding!
    quietestmouse: *dies*
    quietestmouse: now that's entertainment
    quietestmouse: not really
    AranElus: *places flowers on grave*
    AranElus: *snif*
    quietestmouse: damn, i must be irritating
    AranElus: that's like de-entertainment
    AranElus: you've just ruined my life.
    AranElus: *cry*
    quietestmouse: oh my. another innocent life, stained. i should be ashamed of myself.
    AranElus: or we should have a twister party...
    AranElus: either one would suffice
    quietestmouse: i had to explain a dirty joke to a friend. it felt so wrong, considering she's had more experience than i have.
    quietestmouse: twister party would be good.
    AranElus: yes.
    quietestmouse: i've only played twister with little kids lately, which sucks because they're horrible at it and it's too easy for me to win.
    AranElus: decision: twister party beats being ashamed of yourself. Judgement is to the plaintiff.
    quietestmouse: haha. sounds nice and guilt free to me
    AranElus: $6000 dollars.
    AranElus: in mental damages =P
    quietestmouse: lmao
    quietestmouse: how about i just leave the country?
    quietestmouse: and pass my debt on to a charitable organization?
    AranElus: you can never escape them.
    quietestmouse: oh dear.
    quietestmouse: that is true
    AranElus: they will get you...
    quietestmouse: well. it depends on who they are.
    AranElus: they will make their name bold until you beg them to stop.
    quietestmouse: who exactly is this they you are referring to?
    AranElus: duh duh duhhhhhhhh
    quietestmouse: hey. don't mock bold. bold is your friend.
    quietestmouse: and don't you forget it
    AranElus: ohh, you must know about them.
    quietestmouse: oh, i do.
    quietestmouse: but i wish i didn't.
    AranElus: they permeate all aspects of your life.
    quietestmouse: they are the scourge of human existance.
    AranElus: they are none other than microsoft.
    quietestmouse: but now... i have said too much.
    quietestmouse: lmao
    quietestmouse: yes
    quietestmouse: they are them, indeed.
    AranElus: they are themselves so we should let them be them and let them do what they wish.
    AranElus: pressing cntrl-b is difficult when you are doing it ever other word...
    quietestmouse: yes. because we enjoy our personal freedoms just as much as they do.
    AranElus: but it is what they require.
    quietestmouse: i just do < b >
    quietestmouse: it is.
    quietestmouse: and we must respect their wishes
    AranElus: so it is unfortunate for us.
    quietestmouse: le sigh
    AranElus: or we will be hunted like animals by their evil bugs in their terrible OS's
    quietestmouse: i always wanted to use that [le sigh] but never got around to it
    quietestmouse: ooh. it didn't work for you?
    quietestmouse: odd
    AranElus: damnit
    AranElus: look what they have done!
    quietestmouse: i guess you'll have to use the long way
    AranElus: my life is ruined!
    quietestmouse: they obviously hate you.
    quietestmouse: i'm sorry mike.
    AranElus: they are out to get me.
    quietestmouse: you are not one of the ones chosen by them
    AranElus: uh oh, they are at my door...
    AranElus: *shrivels up into a little ball and cowers in terror of them*
    AranElus: i hope that they don't destroy this conversation.
    quietestmouse: they will find you.
    quietestmouse: no matter where you hide.
    AranElus: they show no remorse
    quietestmouse: they will do anything in their power to get their desired ends.
    AranElus: Bill Gates is in league with satan.
    quietestmouse: !!! satan. must be bold.
    AranElus: ohh no! here they come...
    quietestmouse: bill gates and satan are the same entity, are they not?
    quietestmouse: just in two bodies
    quietestmouse: they are evil. personified. computerized. and incinerated.
    AranElus: satan is actually controlling the body of bill gates although bill gates is far more evil.
    quietestmouse: i'd say they are about equal.
    quietestmouse: i wouldn't want to encourage competition between them
    AranElus: because bill gates monopolizes everything...
    AranElus: he may even monopolize hell.
    quietestmouse: and satan's got the market down on sinners.
    quietestmouse: he most certainly may.
    AranElus: i think that he has.
    AranElus: alright, maybe we should end this convo on a good, comical note.
    AranElus: and stop talken about them now.
    quietestmouse: yes, i think that's a good plan.
    quietestmouse: because by talking about them, we give them exactly what they want.
    AranElus: so, copy and paste this into livejournal.
    quietestmouse: and besides, the comedy here is based totally on use of bold.
    AranElus: ture
    AranElus: !!! ugh !!! bill gates has control of the typo demon and he has unleashed it on me!
    quietestmouse: aaaah!
    quietestmouse: *runs for her life*
    quietestmouse: *and her computer*
    AranElus: go to your homes, children!
    AranElus: *runs to get some icecream*
    quietestmouse: step away from your mice and keyboards!
    AranElus: yum.... icecream
    quietestmouse: i think i have barbeque potato chips.
    AranElus: ahhh!
    AranElus: ooooooo!
    quietestmouse: mmm... melissa brought me over *lime tortia chips* today. and didn't spell that right, but it's ok. they were delicious
    AranElus: ohh, yeah? well i have SOUR CREAM AND ONION! beat that!
    quietestmouse: um, excuse me
    quietestmouse: barbeque beats sour cream and onion any day
    AranElus: SOUR CREAM AND ONION is invincible.
    quietestmouse: i'm sorry.
    quietestmouse: you're obviously delusioinal
    quietestmouse: i think you need to be taken to a taste specialist
    AranElus: yes...immediately
    AranElus: i need toungue evaluation.
    AranElus: we need toungueologists.
    quietestmouse: tasteologists
    quietestmouse: asdfjaskdlfjaslkdfologists
    AranElus: ;lajksdfl;ajsdfl;ajsfd;lajsdflkjologists
    AranElus: and so begins a battle of one-up-manship that will finally spiral into catastrophe when one of their computers overheats and blows a hole in the ground where their house once stood
    quietestmouse: fucking livejournal. the internet obviously hates me tonight. *potty mouth*
    quietestmouse: hahaha. i have no desire to compete further, sorry to ruin your fun.
    quietestmouse: i would rather focus my attacks on *livejournal*, who is having an outage. adfjaksldjfkasldjfalksdjflaskdjfalksdjflkajsdflkadsjfkldsj.
    quietestmouse: take that, you damn outage
    AranElus: that's because i enlightened you as to the outcome of your actions.
    quietestmouse: it did let me post a message, but i can't see it.
    quietestmouse: yes
    AranElus: I am the amazing oracle announcer voice, bow before me!
    quietestmouse: dude. i didn't mean to say dude, but it's too late now. ok. erin and i were trying to use a ouija board, and it wouldn't work, we have to try to contact someone next time i see you or whatever. yeah.
    AranElus: yeah, d00t.
    AranElus: 3l33t.
    AranElus: hah!
    quietestmouse: that sounded so teenager. dear lord what have i become. and why am i adressing dear lord as an atheist?
    quietestmouse: aah
    quietestmouse: dan does that when he wants to be funny
    AranElus: you evil, evil individual.
    quietestmouse: & it's not funny, i'm sorry.
    quietestmouse: his sarcasm needs work.
    AranElus: yes!
    AranElus: This is an amazing convo!
    quietestmouse: it is.
    AranElus: hilarity at it's fineset.
    quietestmouse: wow.
    quietestmouse: i haven't seen the likes of it since melissa and co left
    quietestmouse: and that was in person
    quietestmouse: online convos are... different.
    quietestmouse: we did get a video, though.
    AranElus: hilarity is much more dificult online.
    quietestmouse: it really is
    quietestmouse: because you automatically have the monotone voice
    AranElus: but we have achieved it.
    quietestmouse: and you have to take it from thre
    quietestmouse: yes!
    quietestmouse: we are evil geniuses
    quietestmouse: just like bill gates
    AranElus: we are the champions of the universe!.... or justmy back yard..
    quietestmouse: and satan
    AranElus: i think my back yard will do.
    quietestmouse: or my gazebo and black top
    quietestmouse: how about the high school?
    AranElus: satan will own you gazebo, and change it into a gazebo:-)
    AranElus: i mean.... !
    quietestmouse: i am a cool senior this year. i rool the skool.
    quietestmouse: i also cannot spell.
    quietestmouse: la la la
    quietestmouse: wow. so like, satan can make things stay the same? that's some heavy stuff.
    AranElus: d00d, u did it all rong: i r00l da sk00l.
    quietestmouse: i am so sorry.
    AranElus: no! he can make them bold!
    AranElus: an amazing power that we will never be able to comprehend
    quietestmouse: i am not as l33t as you k00l hackerz
    quietestmouse: it is amazing.
    AranElus: it is too unbelievable for us simple minded humans to even try to understand.
    AranElus: wil the hilarity ever end!?
    quietestmouse: the inner workings of the bold function may never be fully comprehended.
    quietestmouse: we can only stare with wonder
    quietestmouse: when i get off the computer to go to bed. :p
    quietestmouse: which is when my mothers friend leaves
    quietestmouse: which is probably soon
    AranElus: that sucks...
    AranElus: i was hoping that we could r00l the w0r1d.
    quietestmouse: yeep. but i need my ugly sleep. ha ha ha. that wasn't funny, therefore i needed to laugh.
    quietestmouse: we'll have to save that for tomorrow
    quietestmouse: or the next day
    AranElus: or..... umm....
    AranElus: [insert funny timespan here]
    quietestmouse: after i get my drivers licence *loud dramatic music* or fail the test. damn.
    AranElus: hmm
    AranElus: i think we should end this convo now, as to preserve the good vibes
    AranElus: and the good humor
    quietestmouse: sounds like a good plan
    quietestmouse: didn't you suggest that earlier?
    AranElus: so maybe it will carry over into the next one.
    quietestmouse: oh well.
    quietestmouse: i ruined it.
    AranElus: yes, you did!
    quietestmouse: you may post it to your livejournal if you like
    AranElus: well...
    AranElus: i shall..
    AranElus: i've gotta sleep... bye
    quietestmouse: i'm sorry. i'm going to go cry in my corner now.
    quietestmouse: good.
    quietestmouse: byebye
    11:22 pm
    This is one of the funniest AIM convos i have ever had, and i had it a few mins ago... most of the humour is based upon bold words... but i think you'll get the drift.

    AranElus: aloa
    quietestmouse: hii
    AranElus: are you having trouble with your e-mail server?
    AranElus: Outlook's having trouble contacting narnu
    quietestmouse: not yet, i probably will be. i haven't been able to ftp anything in tonight
    quietestmouse: no, the email's fine
    quietestmouse: *just checked*
    AranElus: for the past 3 days i've been having trouble...
    AranElus: ag
    quietestmouse: : \
    quietestmouse: damn narisma server
    quietestmouse: i uploaded the new layout earlier, no problems, and now it's being all stupid
    quietestmouse: haven't been having problems at all with email, though
    AranElus: that's a nice layout, btw
    quietestmouse: thank ya
    AranElus: the thing you did with th epic of your street looks cool... looks professional.. heh
    quietestmouse: yaay
    AranElus: it seems as if you are dwelling on your insanity, though
    quietestmouse: i'm glad, i was trying to fade the light greyish original background into the white that i wanted subtly.
    quietestmouse: how so? :p
    quietestmouse: i didn't think i did too much this time
    AranElus: well... you talk about it much more.. now you seem more insane than geeky in this format
    quietestmouse: lol
    AranElus: and that is a decidedly bad thing
    AranElus: some of your drawings are amazing, also...
    AranElus: i thought one of them was a photograph...
    quietestmouse: i put on more of an act in the past, the little happy go lucky dorky amanda act, which is not a cool act when it isn't true. not that there's anything wrong with the persona, it's allowed me to gain many friends, but it isn't quite me. this layout was me, the writing was me, and that makes me feel proud of it that i can do that now.
    quietestmouse: thank you. : o
    AranElus: it is more you-ish than previous versions... and i like it, but others might take it the wrong way... but, on second though, that doesn't matter
    quietestmouse: others can take it however they like, heh. :p i'm just so tired of making layouts with an audience in mind like i used to, i decided now, screw the audience, make whatever the hell you want, amanda, as long as you like it.
    quietestmouse: also i talk to myself more, and out loud. :p
    AranElus: now THAT is cool.
    AranElus: hehe
    quietestmouse: i may have to post this on my livejournal, just to warn you. :p
    AranElus: this convo?
    quietestmouse: si si
    AranElus: cookl
    AranElus: i mean, cool
    quietestmouse: it works well with my previous about the page
    AranElus: posting convos = fun-fun-silly-willy
    quietestmouse: i think i will, but i'll clip off this part
    quietestmouse: lol, you're talking like mel now
    AranElus: alright
    AranElus: i post convos lots now..
    AranElus: i think i'll post this one also...
    quietestmouse: she and her best friend christina came over today and we had mucho fun
    AranElus: unedited
    quietestmouse: yaaay
    quietestmouse: posting convos is good stuff
    AranElus: and i initiated the craze
    AranElus: i feel so special.... or not
    AranElus: whatev
    quietestmouse: feel special, you never know when you might be able to again. :p
    AranElus: fun-fun-silly-willy is my word. DAMNIT!
    AranElus: hehe
    quietestmouse: i thought it was a melissa word. :p
    quietestmouse: she doesn't use it much anymore, though
    AranElus: ohh well, it don't matter
    quietestmouse: it can be both your words
    AranElus: we can have joint custody of "fun-fun-silly-willy"
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: the legallity is disturbing
    quietestmouse: so who pays child support, and when do you get visitation?
    quietestmouse: very
    AranElus: I get visitation whenever i want to, dammit.
    AranElus: I guess that means i pay child-support... screwed again.
    AranElus: hehe
    quietestmouse: you go! fight for your rights!
    quietestmouse: well, it's a small price to pay...
    quietestmouse: i almost said you go girl because i get so used to it, but i slapped myself out of it. *nodnod*
    AranElus: for a word with three hyphons, 'tis a small price to pay
    AranElus: hey, this convo is getting interesting...
    AranElus: now that i've jinxed it.
    AranElus: too bad
    quietestmouse: hey, i thought it was interesting before. sniff sniff. don't mind me.
    AranElus: maybe i will... but... on second thought...
    AranElus: dammit, nevermind.
    quietestmouse: ok
    quietestmouse: whatever you say
    quietestmouse: it's been a long day
    quietestmouse: i'm a poet and i didn't even know it
    quietestmouse: oh dear.
    quietestmouse: now i'm just taking this too far
    AranElus: oh my
    quietestmouse: no turning back now, wilson
    quietestmouse: wilson!
    quietestmouse: spalding!
    quietestmouse: *dies*
    quietestmouse: now that's entertainment
    quietestmouse: not really
    AranElus: *places flowers on grave*
    AranElus: *snif*
    quietestmouse: damn, i must be irritating
    AranElus: that's like de-entertainment
    AranElus: you've just ruined my life.
    AranElus: *cry*
    quietestmouse: oh my. another innocent life, stained. i should be ashamed of myself.
    AranElus: or we should have a twister party...
    AranElus: either one would suffice
    quietestmouse: i had to explain a dirty joke to a friend. it felt so wrong, considering she's had more experience than i have.
    quietestmouse: twister party would be good.
    AranElus: yes.
    quietestmouse: i've only played twister with little kids lately, which sucks because they're horrible at it and it's too easy for me to win.
    AranElus: decision: twister party beats being ashamed of yourself. Judgement is to the plaintiff.
    quietestmouse: haha. sounds nice and guilt free to me
    AranElus: $6000 dollars.
    AranElus: in mental damages =P
    quietestmouse: lmao
    quietestmouse: how about i just leave the country?
    quietestmouse: and pass my debt on to a charitable organization?
    AranElus: you can never escape them.
    quietestmouse: oh dear.
    quietestmouse: that is true
    AranElus: they will get you...
    quietestmouse: well. it depends on who they are.
    AranElus: they will make their name bold until you beg them to stop.
    quietestmouse: who exactly is this they you are referring to?
    AranElus: duh duh duhhhhhhhh
    quietestmouse: hey. don't mock bold. bold is your friend.
    quietestmouse: and don't you forget it
    AranElus: ohh, you must know about them.
    quietestmouse: oh, i do.
    quietestmouse: but i wish i didn't.
    AranElus: they permeate all aspects of your life.
    quietestmouse: they are the scourge of human existance.
    AranElus: they are none other than microsoft.
    quietestmouse: but now... i have said too much.
    quietestmouse: lmao
    quietestmouse: yes
    quietestmouse: they are them, indeed.
    AranElus: they are themselves so we should let them be them and let them do what they wish.
    AranElus: pressing cntrl-b is difficult when you are doing it ever other word...
    quietestmouse: yes. because we enjoy our personal freedoms just as much as they do.
    AranElus: but it is what they require.
    quietestmouse: i just do < b >
    quietestmouse: it is.
    quietestmouse: and we must respect their wishes
    AranElus: so it is unfortunate for us.
    quietestmouse: le sigh
    AranElus: or we will be hunted like animals by their evil bugs in their terrible OS's
    quietestmouse: i always wanted to use that [le sigh] but never got around to it
    quietestmouse: ooh. it didn't work for you?
    quietestmouse: odd
    AranElus: damnit
    AranElus: look what they have done!
    quietestmouse: i guess you'll have to use the long way
    AranElus: my life is ruined!
    quietestmouse: they obviously hate you.
    quietestmouse: i'm sorry mike.
    AranElus: they are out to get me.
    quietestmouse: you are not one of the ones chosen by them
    AranElus: uh oh, they are at my door...
    AranElus: *shrivels up into a little ball and cowers in terror of them*
    AranElus: i hope that they don't destroy this conversation.
    quietestmouse: they will find you.
    quietestmouse: no matter where you hide.
    AranElus: they show no remorse
    quietestmouse: they will do anything in their power to get their desired ends.
    AranElus: Bill Gates is in league with satan.
    quietestmouse: !!! satan. must be bold.
    AranElus: ohh no! here they come...
    quietestmouse: bill gates and satan are the same entity, are they not?
    quietestmouse: just in two bodies
    quietestmouse: they are evil. personified. computerized. and incinerated.
    AranElus: satan is actually controlling the body of bill gates although bill gates is far more evil.
    quietestmouse: i'd say they are about equal.
    quietestmouse: i wouldn't want to encourage competition between them
    AranElus: because bill gates monopolizes everything...
    AranElus: he may even monopolize hell.
    quietestmouse: and satan's got the market down on sinners.
    quietestmouse: he most certainly may.
    AranElus: i think that he has.
    AranElus: alright, maybe we should end this convo on a good, comical note.
    AranElus: and stop talken about them now.
    quietestmouse: yes, i think that's a good plan.
    quietestmouse: because by talking about them, we give them exactly what they want.
    AranElus: so, copy and paste this into livejournal.
    quietestmouse: and besides, the comedy here is based totally on use of bold.
    AranElus: ture
    AranElus: !!! ugh !!! bill gates has control of the typo demon and he has unleashed it on me!
    quietestmouse: aaaah!
    quietestmouse: *runs for her life*
    quietestmouse: *and her computer*
    AranElus: go to your homes, children!
    AranElus: *runs to get some icecream*
    quietestmouse: step away from your mice and keyboards!
    AranElus: yum.... icecream
    quietestmouse: i think i have barbeque potato chips.
    AranElus: ahhh!
    AranElus: ooooooo!
    quietestmouse: mmm... melissa brought me over *lime tortia chips* today. and didn't spell that right, but it's ok. they were delicious
    AranElus: ohh, yeah? well i have SOUR CREAM AND ONION! beat that!
    quietestmouse: um, excuse me
    quietestmouse: barbeque beats sour cream and onion any day
    AranElus: SOUR CREAM AND ONION is invincible.
    quietestmouse: i'm sorry.
    quietestmouse: you're obviously delusioinal
    quietestmouse: i think you need to be taken to a taste specialist
    AranElus: yes...immediately
    AranElus: i need toungue evaluation.
    AranElus: we need toungueologists.
    quietestmouse: tasteologists
    quietestmouse: asdfjaskdlfjaslkdfologists
    AranElus: ;lajksdfl;ajsdfl;ajsfd;lajsdflkjologists
    AranElus: and so begins a battle of one-up-manship that will finally spiral into catastrophe when one of their computers overheats and blows a hole in the ground where their house once stood
    quietestmouse: fucking livejournal. the internet obviously hates me tonight. *potty mouth*
    quietestmouse: hahaha. i have no desire to compete further, sorry to ruin your fun.
    quietestmouse: i would rather focus my attacks on *livejournal*, who is having an outage. adfjaksldjfkasldjfalksdjflaskdjfalksdjflkajsdflkadsjfkldsj.
    quietestmouse: take that, you damn outage
    AranElus: that's because i enlightened you as to the outcome of your actions.
    quietestmouse: it did let me post a message, but i can't see it.
    quietestmouse: yes
    AranElus: I am the amazing oracle announcer voice, bow before me!
    quietestmouse: dude. i didn't mean to say dude, but it's too late now. ok. erin and i were trying to use a ouija board, and it wouldn't work, we have to try to contact someone next time i see you or whatever. yeah.
    AranElus: yeah, d00t.
    AranElus: 3l33t.
    AranElus: hah!
    quietestmouse: that sounded so teenager. dear lord what have i become. and why am i adressing dear lord as an atheist?
    quietestmouse: aah
    quietestmouse: dan does that when he wants to be funny
    AranElus: you evil, evil individual.
    quietestmouse: & it's not funny, i'm sorry.
    quietestmouse: his sarcasm needs work.
    AranElus: yes!
    AranElus: This is an amazing convo!
    quietestmouse: it is.
    AranElus: hilarity at it's fineset.
    quietestmouse: wow.
    quietestmouse: i haven't seen the likes of it since melissa and co left
    quietestmouse: and that was in person
    quietestmouse: online convos are... different.
    quietestmouse: we did get a video, though.
    AranElus: hilarity is much more dificult online.
    quietestmouse: it really is
    quietestmouse: because you automatically have the monotone voice
    AranElus: but we have achieved it.
    quietestmouse: and you have to take it from thre
    quietestmouse: yes!
    quietestmouse: we are evil geniuses
    quietestmouse: just like bill gates
    AranElus: we are the champions of the universe!.... or justmy back yard..
    quietestmouse: and satan
    AranElus: i think my back yard will do.
    quietestmouse: or my gazebo and black top
    quietestmouse: how about the high school?
    AranElus: satan will own you gazebo, and change it into a gazebo:-)
    AranElus: i mean.... !
    quietestmouse: i am a cool senior this year. i rool the skool.
    quietestmouse: i also cannot spell.
    quietestmouse: la la la
    quietestmouse: wow. so like, satan can make things stay the same? that's some heavy stuff.
    AranElus: d00d, u did it all rong: i r00l da sk00l.
    quietestmouse: i am so sorry.
    AranElus: no! he can make them bold!
    AranElus: an amazing power that we will never be able to comprehend
    quietestmouse: i am not as l33t as you k00l hackerz
    quietestmouse: it is amazing.
    AranElus: it is too unbelievable for us simple minded humans to even try to understand.
    AranElus: wil the hilarity ever end!?
    quietestmouse: the inner workings of the bold function may never be fully comprehended.
    quietestmouse: we can only stare with wonder
    quietestmouse: when i get off the computer to go to bed. :p
    quietestmouse: which is when my mothers friend leaves
    quietestmouse: which is probably soon
    AranElus: that sucks...
    AranElus: i was hoping that we could r00l the w0r1d.
    quietestmouse: yeep. but i need my ugly sleep. ha ha ha. that wasn't funny, therefore i needed to laugh.
    quietestmouse: we'll have to save that for tomorrow
    quietestmouse: or the next day
    AranElus: or..... umm....
    AranElus: [insert funny timespan here]
    quietestmouse: after i get my drivers licence *loud dramatic music* or fail the test. damn.
    AranElus: hmm
    AranElus: i think we should end this convo now, as to preserve the good vibes
    AranElus: and the good humor
    quietestmouse: sounds like a good plan
    quietestmouse: didn't you suggest that earlier?
    AranElus: so maybe it will carry over into the next one.
    quietestmouse: oh well.
    quietestmouse: i ruined it.
    AranElus: yes, you did!
    quietestmouse: you may post it to your livejournal if you like
    AranElus: well...
    AranElus: i shall..
    AranElus: i've gotta sleep... bye
    quietestmouse: i'm sorry. i'm going to go cry in my corner now.
    quietestmouse: good.
    quietestmouse: byebye
    10:06 pm
    mike vs. religion
    I was on furc a few minutes ago and i met his endearing 13 year old girl who is a rather devout christian.... i had the follow ing conversation with her... this is one of my favourite verbal sparring matches that i've ever had.

    [ Florida Gurl whispers, "Hey there." to you. ]
    Berserk ish chewed on!
    [ You whisper "hey" to Florida Gurl. ]
    Obi-Chan wonders where KaGe went to
    Winter Dust doesn't understand a word Echolan is saying... -.-
    Kantara: lol
    You say, "hehe... 'tis old english"
    You say, "shakespearean"
    Shynem: Very well written old english, as far as that.
    Kantara: Shakeaspear!
    Shynem: ...Unwell.
    Shynem: Not well.
    Winter Dust: Yeah.. Okay. Can you talk normally?
    Kantara: lol
    You say, "sure"
    Shynem: Very BADLY written, old english.
    Shynem: ...>.<
    [ Florida Gurl whispers, "I was listening to your convo through my bot.... I can't believe that she didn't like the m'lady thing. That stuff is so cute:-D:-P" to you. ]
    Kantara: LOL!
    You say, "my pleasure"
    Kantara snuggles Shy for being so smart
    ChibiKuja lost his kagechan
    ChibiKuja: :~(
    ChibiKuja poofs
    [ You whisper "well thankee there. I enjoy knighthood" to Florida Gurl. ]
    Shynem hugs Kanta, "Me so smart."
    Deaton: I made it over here!
    [ You whisper "where art thou?" to Florida Gurl. ]
    Winter Dust: o.o
    Berserk: your back!
    +KaGeHime+: god damn computer ><
    [ Florida Gurl whispers, "I am in my bar. Singles Pillow Palace." to you. ]
    Obi-Chan hugs KaGe!
    +KaGeHime+ hughugs
    [ You whisper "i'll brt" to Florida Gurl. ]
    Winter Dust: Nyu.
    Deaton: damn! I come over here, and there's nothing to do!
    [ Florida Gurl whispers, "Kewl:-D" to you. ]
    Winter Dust: Sure there is!
    (You enter the dream of Singles PillowPalace.)
    (Lines of DragonSpeak: 37)
    [ You whisper "yuck, even on DSL dreams DL slowly" to Florida Gurl. ]
    [ You whisper "=(" to Florida Gurl. ]
    [ Florida Gurl whispers, "My dream is REALLY slow." to you. ]
    (You see Florida Gurl.)
    > Hi, everyone! I'm back! Yay!
    [ Florida Gurl whispers, "And I've cut down on the time the best that I can." to you. ]
    Florida Gurl: You call THAT slow?
    You say, "yes... for DSL"
    Florida Gurl: Just for the record.......
    You say, "i can usually get 1MB in about 20 secs"
    Florida Gurl: It takes most people like 10 min.
    You say, "hah!"
    Florida Gurl shakes her head.
    Florida Gurl smiles.
    Echolan RiNesra smiles back and bows generously...
    Florida Gurl: Can I get you a drink?
    You say, "no thank you, m'lady"
    Florida Gurl smiles her cutesy "That is so cute" smile. (Patented)
    Florida Gurl: How old r u irl?
    You say, "I am a knight. It is the conduct that i must follow"
    You say, "15"
    Florida Gurl: Ok, I'm 13.
    You say, "hehe..."
    Florida Gurl feels little..........agian.
    Florida Gurl: So what happened to the girl you were talking to?
    You say, "don't feel little, m'lady, you musn't be troubled by thy age, for thy age 'tisn't a sign of thy maturity."
    You say, "_"
    Florida Gurl smiles.
    You say, "ohh, i doth not matter."
    You say, "I never trouble m'lady's hand with mine requests. I supply my own spirits, and fine ones, at that"
    Florida Gurl smiles a little as she can barely understand the way you talk, but hey! That's the price I have to pay.
    Echolan RiNesra pulls out some amber looking wine
    You say, "I canst speak the normal, if it is m'lady's wish."
    Echolan RiNesra bows
    Florida Gurl: Whichever you prefer.
    You say, "alright"
    You say, "i'll speak english, then"
    You say, "normally"
    Florida Gurl: Ok.
    You say, "although i do prefer the knightly lingo"
    Echolan RiNesra laughs good-naturedly.
    You say, "I haven't gone on furc in 3 months..."
    Florida Gurl: I prefer the ghetto lingo.... so if I start talking like a rapper's girlfriend, just ya know, remind me that I'm being stupid.
    You say, "hah"
    Florida Gurl smiles a little.
    You say, "i shall"
    You say, "most males are idiots anyways"
    You say, "i'm used to putting up with l33t"
    You say, "unfortunately"
    Florida Gurl: l33t?
    You say, "i needn't taint your mind with l33t. It is crap, and i shall not talk of it when it's not neccessary"
    Florida Gurl: Well.......
    You say, "just, FYI, it's talking useing all the abbreviations"
    You say, "i.e.: "how r u doing?""
    You say, ""l8ter""
    You say, "actualy "l8er""
    You say, "that type 'o stuff"
    Florida Gurl: You mentioned it, I asked a question, can't ya just answer?
    You say, "l33t is talking using 'r' for 'are' and 'u' for 'you' and 'l8er' for 'later'."
    You say, "it's the ultimate turn off for me..."
    Florida Gurl: Oh.
    You say, "but most people talk like that over the internet, unfortunately."
    Florida Gurl: I usually don't talk like that.
    Florida Gurl: Honestly.
    You say, "Good."
    Echolan RiNesra smiles.
    Florida Gurl: I was just.........
    Florida Gurl: I dunno.
    You say, "you needn't worry."
    Florida Gurl: Usually when I first meet someone I do that.
    Florida Gurl: God knows why.
    You say, "do what?"
    You say, "talk like a rappers girlfriend?"
    (You see Imp warrior.)
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    Florida Gurl giggles: If that's what you wanna call it.
    You say, "i doesn't matter _. I'll respect you fine nomatter how you speak as long as your not l33ting."
    Florida Gurl: Okies.
    Florida Gurl taked a mental note.... Use actual WORDS (not letters) around Echol....
    You say, "Echo, call me Echo"
    Florida Gurl: Ok, then, Echo.
    You say, "my name is ridiculously long, i apologize"
    Florida Gurl: They call me Flory or Flori, whichever you prefer.
    You say, "actually, flori is a nice name..."
    Florida Gurl: Usually Flory, but I honestly don't care. I like Flori better.
    You say, "although a rose by any name would smell as sweet_."
    Florida Gurl smiles.
    Florida Gurl: Poetic type irl?
    Florida Gurl takes a guess.....
    You say, "Yes, i write lots of poetry."
    Florida Gurl smiles again.
    Florida Gurl: Wow.
    Florida Gurl: I'm a singer.
    Florida Gurl: A Christian singer.
    You say, "yuck"
    You say, "christianity"
    Florida Gurl: What?
    You say, "sorry, it doesn't matter."
    You say, "i play drums =)"
    Florida Gurl: Excuse my attitude.... but if you have a problem with Christianity (it is capitalized, Christ's name) You have a problem with me.
    Florida Gurl: It's part of who I am.
    You say, "hehe... i have no problems with your religion"
    Florida Gurl: Why did you say yuck?
    Florida Gurl: Hi, welcome.
    You say, "I don't like Christian rock... sorry."
    Krysta: hi
    Florida Gurl: Oh, it's not Christian rock.
    Florida Gurl: Oh, have you ever heard of Rock the Universe, at universal studios?
    You say, "nope"
    Florida Gurl: Oh....
    You say, "hehe"
    Florida Gurl smiles.
    Florida Gurl: Soooo
    You say, "well..."
    You say, "i hope this doesn't make you dislike me, but..."
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    You say, "I'm an aetheist."
    Florida Gurl: What music do you listen to?
    Florida Gurl: A lot of people are.
    Florida Gurl: But ya know what.
    You say, "hehe"
    You say, "it doesn't matter"
    Florida Gurl: Everyone starts somewhere.
    You say, "we're all human"
    You say, "i was a Christian, once..."
    Florida Gurl: And why not now?
    You say, "but when i began to get philosophical, i realized that christianity was biasing my philosophies..."
    You say, "and i thought that Christianity was ridiculous..."
    You say, "It was good at it's core, but it was ruined by misinterpretation."
    Florida Gurl: Hi.
    Florida Gurl: Ok....
    You say, "I hope i don't offend you."
    Florida Gurl: Back up a few lines, here.
    Florida Gurl: No, but I think you're working on offending my mom.... I personally have no earthly clue what any of that meant....
    You say, "hehe."
    You say, "Do you take the bible litterally?"
    Florida Gurl: Oh, she says "No, he's not offending me. Everyone has a right to their opinion. His is wrong".
    You say, "hehe.. i love Catholics"
    You say, "it's all wrong and right, black and white"
    Florida Gurl: Yes I believe it.
    You say, "it's all Morality."
    You say, "Do you believe that God, in all His grace, created the earth in 7 days?"
    Florida Gurl: Yes I do.
    Florida Gurl: I believe every word of it.
    You say, "good for you!"
    Florida Gurl: But who knows what 7 days in God's time is.
    Florida Gurl: It could be years.
    Florida Gurl: His time is different from ours.
    Echolan RiNesra is walking a thin line between offending you and saying his mind
    Florida Gurl: No, no.
    You say, "ohh?"
    Florida Gurl: You won't offend me.
    Florida Gurl: It COULD be different time is what I meant to say.
    You say, "God is timeless"
    You say, "the fellow will never die, and was never boarn"
    You say, "^born"
    Florida Gurl: As long as you're not some weirdo satan worshipper person, you won't offend me. You're entitled to your thoughts.
    You say, "ohh, i don't believe in anything religous"
    Florida Gurl: My mom says that she's never heard God referred to as "The fellow"
    You say, "hehe.. pardon my familiar references to god"
    You say, "i mean, God"
    You say, "pardon me."
    Florida Gurl: Do you beleive in God.
    Florida Gurl: ?
    You say, "not in the slightest"
    Florida Gurl: Not . , ?
    Florida Gurl: Hmmmm....
    You say, "i think he's a load of nonsense"
    Florida Gurl: How do you think that you got here?
    You say, "through evolution"
    You say, "i don't think that the big bang theory is worth a grain of salt, though"
    Florida Gurl: I'm glad that you evolved from apes, but I ain't no stinking monkey.....
    You say, "and niether am i."
    Florida Gurl tries not to laugh.
    You say, "we aren't monkeys"
    You say, "we are humans"
    Florida Gurl: That theory is ridiculous.
    You say, "what, darwinism?"
    Florida Gurl: Well, duh.
    You say, "hah@"
    You say, "!"
    Florida Gurl: Yeah.
    You say, "God is ridiculous"
    Florida Gurl: Why are the monkeys still monkeys? Why didn't they evolve?
    Florida Gurl: Or apes, whatever?
    You say, "this is ridiculous"
    Florida Gurl: Yeah, that's exactly what I was thinking.
    You say, "you see the reasons for what you are talking about all around you."
    You say, "it is that you are blinded by your beliefs, instead of being set free by them"
    Florida Gurl: For what I talk about.
    Florida Gurl: You are right when you say that I see all around me what I talk about.
    Florida Gurl: I talk about God.
    Florida Gurl: Walk outside.
    Florida Gurl: Everything that you see....
    You say, "is..."
    Florida Gurl: It was made by God.
    You say, " really?"
    You say, "hmm"
    You say, "curious"
    Florida Gurl: That's a few MILLION reasons.
    You say, "where did cain's wife come from?"
    Florida Gurl: It never says that there was only Adam and Eve.
    Florida Gurl: It only says that they were the first.
    You say, "hmmmm!"
    You say, "i must say, you are a fool for believing the bible is completely literal and not supposing that it may also be figurative and metaphorical"
    Florida Gurl: You do realize that everything that you say, I'll have something else, and that this could go on for days, right?
    You say, "the bible makes sense, if you look at it in a certain way"
    You say, "yes"
    You say, "i enjoy talking to people like you."
    Florida Gurl smiles.
    You say, "playing god is fun..."
    Florida Gurl: What?
    Florida Gurl: Playing God?
    Florida Gurl: ???
    You say, "not 'playing God', that would be blasphemous."
    You say, "i said 'playing god'"
    You say, "i'm pretty much saying that it's fun to be unenlightened"
    Florida Gurl: My mommy said that she's gonna pray for you.
    You say, "hehe, and it will do me no good"
    Florida Gurl giggles a little..... That's her answer to the world.
    Florida Gurl: You'd be surprised.
    You say, "i would be, if it did anything for me, whatsoever"
    You say, "I feel sorry for you."
    Florida Gurl: Well ya know what...
    You say, "and you mum feels sorry for me"
    Florida Gurl: I feel VERY sorry for you.
    You say, "as you should"
    You say, "because i am unenlightened."
    Florida Gurl: Enlightened of what?
    Florida Gurl: Oh..
    Florida Gurl: I can read, now.
    Florida Gurl: Nm.
    You say, "i am a helpless, ignorant soul traversing the infinite void of conciousneess without a holy guide."
    You say, "ohh, woe is me."
    Florida Gurl: Yeah.... I can agree to that..
    Florida Gurl: Oh, hold up.
    Florida Gurl: Was that sarcasm?
    Echolan RiNesra points out the ridiculous amounts of sarcasm.
    Florida Gurl: You're right, there is a ridiculous ammount of sarcasm.
    You say, "you see, i realize that i can not put a dent in your ignorance, it's just fun to play with your head. I've enjoyed talking with you so far."
    You say, "well, it's a downright UNHOLY amount of sarcasm."
    Florida Gurl: Playing with my head, huh?
    You say, "yeah"
    Florida Gurl: No, just listen for a sec.
    You say, "hehe"
    Florida Gurl: Don't talk.
    Florida Gurl: Listen.
    Florida Gurl: YOU are NOT playing with my head.
    Florida Gurl: The only reason I'm doing this is because this is what I believe.
    Echolan RiNesra listens with a fiendish smile on his face.
    Florida Gurl: I KNOW that this is true.
    Florida Gurl: And nothing that you say will change the way that I see this.
    You say, "i know that."
    You say, "that's why i'm playing with you."
    Florida Gurl: If you think that you're playing with my head, you're wrong.
    Florida Gurl: Because I think what I think.
    You say, "a beutifully played fencing match of words"
    You say, "i'm playing with your head, not warping it from it's holy and righteous ways."
    Florida Gurl: And nothing that you say is going to change it.
    Florida Gurl: You're not 15.... There is no way.
    Elaine DeFlirt looks at Echolan and then looks away
    You say, "well, how old do you think i am?"
    Florida Gurl: No 15 year old boy talks like this.
    Florida Gurl: Like....
    Florida Gurl thinks...
    Florida Gurl: Old enough to have had this nonsense about philosophy pounded into your head.
    Elaine DeFlirt whispers to herself "19......"
    You say, "nonsense!!!!!!!!!!"
    Florida Gurl: And aped.
    Florida Gurl: OOCapes
    You say, "nonsense!"
    Florida Gurl: Did I mis spell it?
    Florida Gurl: No, I didn't think so.
    Elaine DeFlirt: i dun think it's nonsense......
    You say, "all your words waste and decay, nothing you say reaches my head anyway. You never spoke a word of truth."
    Florida Gurl laughs......
    You say, " -Greg Lake inthe song "The Endless Enigma""
    Florida Gurl: Are you gonna be on again?
    You say, "yes."
    You say, "do you have AIM?"
    Florida Gurl: When?
    Florida Gurl: Yes, but I don't use it.
    You say, "alright."
    Florida Gurl: I've got too much garbage through it.
    You say, "when will you be on?"
    Florida Gurl: Anytime...
    Florida Gurl: I'm home schooled.
    You say, "ahh! so you've had Catholisizm pounded into!"
    Florida Gurl: No.
    You say, "i understand you"
    Florida Gurl: Christianity.
    Elaine DeFlirt laughs
    Florida Gurl: We aren't Catholics.
    You say, "sorry for the misspelling and wrong word"
    You say, "Christianity."
    Elaine DeFlirt sees that's he's not intrested in her so she moves back down
    Florida Gurl: I'm usually on at about 7:00 or 8:00 at night.
    You say, "may God bless your soul and show you the way to lead your life through the bumps it shall encounter, and my His Grace bless you with the ansers to my questions"
    Echolan RiNesra's words are dripping with sarcasm.
    You say, "I am fifteen, you know."
    Florida Gurl: I don't appreciate your sarcasm.
    You say, "And neither does His Grace"
    You say, "but can i do anything about that?"
    Florida Gurl: And I don't take any of that from people when I was at school.
    Elaine DeFlirt whispers "I think he's funny"
    You say, "i say, let God be God."
    Florida Gurl: OOCdidn't.
    Florida Gurl: And I REALLY don't feel like taking it from you, and NOT about this.
    You say, "I'm playing with your religion."
    You say, "i'm sorry."
    You say, "it is not a game in which mortals should play."
    Florida Gurl: I believe in the power of prayer.
    Florida Gurl: And we are praying for you.
    You say, "good!"
    Florida Gurl: Don't get an attitude.... Please.
    You say, "pray, it will make you feel better about my damned soul."
    Elaine DeFlirt: Are you alive?
    Florida Gurl: I DON'T wanna get an attitude....
    You say, "that wasn't an attitude."
    You say, "i'm talking in your terms"
    Elaine DeFlirt waves a hand in front of her face
    Florida Gurl shakes her head.
    You say, "Actually, it's good to believe in god."
    You say, "i mean, God"
    Florida Gurl: Thank you.
    Florida Gurl: I was about to correct that.
    You say, "because he is a backbone for the spineless"
    You say, "for those without their own ethics and ideals"
    Elaine DeFlirt: huh?
    Florida Gurl: So you think that I'm spineless?
    You say, "no."
    You say, "i don't know about that."
    Florida Gurl: That's what you just said.
    You say, "i'm making a general statement"
    You say, "any individual may be excluded from a general statement"
    Elaine DeFlirt: goodbye people! and please stop fighting and just drop the subject!
    You say, "you are like a punching back on which for me to practice my philosophy."
    Florida Gurl is speechless.
    You say, "OOCyou are like a punching bag"
    Florida Gurl: I suppose that I live a sheltered life.
    You say, "that wasn't an insult"
    You say, "i do this with my friends too..."
    You say, "they are just not as conservative as yourself."
    Florida Gurl: ........
    Florida Gurl: Do they beleive in God?
    You say, "veryfew of them..."
    You say, "it's still fun to throw philosphy at them and have a verbal sparring match"
    You say, "I'm going to save this log... this is great."
    You say, "hopefully it has logged everything during this convo"
    Florida Gurl: So you think that this is fun because why??
    You say, "hehe"
    Florida Gurl: It probably cut off a lot of it.
    You say, "it's not fun"
    You say, "it's entertaining though... for me"
    You say, "You are the best Christian i have ever met."
    You say, "seriously"
    Florida Gurl: I don't know how to take that from you.
    You say, "but don't pray for me, because i am doomed to hell already, and there's nothing you can do about it..."
    Florida Gurl: Wouldn't that make me the queen of the spineless people who are blinded or however you said it?
    You say, "well... God isn't your spine, his is an exoskeleton that incases your being."
    You say, "proverbially"
    Florida Gurl: If you are REALLY 15........
    Florida Gurl: Then there is PLENTY of time for your life to turn around.
    Florida Gurl: And I beleive that it will.
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    You say, "turn around?"
    You say, "i'm allready damned"
    You say, "hope is the first step toward dissapointment"
    Florida Gurl: There is no sin won't forgive.
    Florida Gurl: Sin GOD won't forgive.
    You say, "what about the sin of being without sin?"
    Florida Gurl kicks the typo semon.
    You say, "i am without sin."
    You say, "because i don't believe in sin"
    Florida Gurl: Right.
    Florida Gurl: We are all sinners.
    Florida Gurl: I hope you enjoyed yourself......
    You say, "i am not of your we."
    Florida Gurl: When I say we, I mean every single human being.
    Florida Gurl: You ARE part of my we.
    You say, "i apologize for my beliefs... "
    Florida Gurl: I have to go.
    You say, "or for my lack thereof"
    Florida Gurl: I have to get up in the morning.
    You say, "will i talk to you again?"
    Florida Gurl: If you're on.
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    You say, "but.. will i?"
    You say, "will you let me?"
    Florida Gurl: .........Sure.
    You say, "do you hold myself against me?"
    Florida Gurl: No.
    You say, "good!"
    You say, "you are going to have a great life."
    You say, "don't stop believing in god."
    You say, "i mean, God"
    You say, "sorry"
    Florida Gurl: It's not your fault that you believe in such foolish things.
    You say, "wow, that, coming from you!"
    Florida Gurl: God is good all the time.
    You say, "It's not YOUR fault that you believe in such foolish things"
    Florida Gurl laughs./
    Florida Gurl: Ok.
    You say, "heh.. i don't believe, i don't"
    Florida Gurl: I don't care what anyone thinks.
    You say, "niether do i."
    You say, "i'm happy that you have something that will help you through life"
    Florida Gurl: I know that it's true. And whether you know it or not, that doesn't affect me.
    You say, "but what happens when God lets you down? (don't say that he won't)"
    You say, "you KNOW?"
    You say, "how do you KNOW?"
    You say, "do you frequently repeat a lie until you believe it to be true?"
    Florida Gurl: Do you?
    You say, "No"
    Florida Gurl: Apparently you do.
    You say, "God isn't a matter of lies"
    You say, "God is the ultimate Truth..."
    Florida Gurl: I have friends who have gone on mission trips.
    You say, "but Truth is a multi-headed demon"
    Florida Gurl: And come back with stories of....
    You say, "Truth can be evil."
    Florida Gurl thinks...
    You say, "Truth can be interpreted "
    Florida Gurl: Steve, a friend of mine...
    Florida Gurl: Said that the power went out..
    Florida Gurl: He was in Trinidad.
    You say, "ahh?"
    Florida Gurl: They prayed and prayed, and the power came back. And don't EVEN say that it would have happened eventually.
    You say, "hehe"
    Florida Gurl: My friend Chris.
    You say, "I love you."
    You say, "hehe"
    You say, "as a matter of religion"
    You say, "not as a matter of person"
    Florida Gurl: He had a friend who would NOT come to churhc.
    Florida Gurl: OOCchurch*
    You say, "I dispise churches myself"
    Florida Gurl: And he told her that she wouldn't be able to sleep until she came to church.
    You say, "such strange and eerie places..."
    Florida Gurl: She literally COULD NOT sleep for 1 week until she went.
    Florida Gurl: And the next night she was able to sleep again.
    Florida Gurl: After she went.
    You say, "hehe"
    You say, "I love religion."
    You say, "it's such fun."
    Florida Gurl: And me.....
    You say, "I love you, religiously speaking..."
    Florida Gurl: I went to Acquire The Fire.
    Florida Gurl: And came back.
    Florida Gurl: I could NOT concentrate during school.
    Florida Gurl: All I could think about was God.
    Florida Gurl: And what I had done wrong.
    You say, "don't make me burn in desire, let me stand next to your fire. -Jimi Hendrix"
    Florida Gurl: And the bad friends.
    You say, "I constantly think about God, also."
    Florida Gurl: I talked my mom into letting me be homeschooled.
    Florida Gurl: And 2 DAYS LATER.
    Florida Gurl: There was a terrorist attack on the school.
    You say, "terrorist?"
    You say, "hmmm"
    You say, "from what country?"
    Florida Gurl takes a deep breath.
    Florida Gurl buries her head in her hands.
    Florida Gurl: Why is the world so sarcastic?
    Florida Gurl: Reny poo!
    Ren0 Of Tha Turks: i cant stay long
    You say, "because people are stupid."
    Florida Gurl: I know.
    Florida Gurl: Neither can I.
    You say, "ohh, i'm sorry..."
    You say, "g'day there"
    Florida Gurl: How are ya, Ren?
    Ren0 Of Tha Turks: so wuts up flory babe o.O?
    Ren0 Of Tha Turks: lol
    Ren0 Of Tha Turks: nuttin
    Florida Gurl: Nothing:-D
    Ren0 Of Tha Turks: like always -.-
    You say, "hehe"
    You say, "one big nothing."
    Florida Gurl: Poor guy:-(
    You say, "yes, she is referring to me"
    Florida Gurl: Why do you have to act like that?
    Florida Gurl: I wasn't referring to anyone.
    You say, "because i am a fool."
    Florida Gurl: Nothing is just what I ALWAYS say.
    Florida Gurl: YOU don't think that though.
    Florida Gurl: Obviously you don't.
    Ren0 Of Tha Turks: fuck
    You say, "i don't?"
    Ren0 Of Tha Turks: i gotta go
    Ren0 Of Tha Turks: bai
    Florida Gurl: Watch it.
    You say, "bye"
    Florida Gurl: Bye.
    Florida Gurl: Mouthy.
    You say, "hah"
    You say, "your life means nothing to me... you are rather arbitrary."
    You say, "if i were to meat you in person.... that view might change"
    Florida Gurl: I'll look that up in the dictionary later.....
    You say, "but i might never see you again, and then, what will you matter?"
    You say, "You won't exist to me"
    You say, "and i won't exist to you.."
    Florida Gurl: Of the million thing that I could say, they would all be mean.
    You say, "hehe"
    You say, "Satan says "hello!""
    You say, "note:"
    You say, "that was said in reference to "Of the million things..." that you just said. "
    You say, "I don't believe in god, or satan."
    Florida Gurl: And Florida says Good-bye.
    Florida Gurl: I need some sleep.
    You say, "alright"
    Florida Gurl: Bye.
    You say, "i hope to speak with you again."
    You say, "bye"

    Current Mood: amused
    Current Music: Alien Ant Farm - "Smooth Criminal"
    Friday, August 3rd, 2001
    6:57 pm
    some more....
    another conversation.. that's enough for tongiht, i believe.

    AranElus: hey
    BindiBhagi: hey
    AranElus: i'm going down to Carolina for a week tommorrrow
    AranElus: and.. Alex and Carrie are going out..
    BindiBhagi: I'm confused about that...
    BindiBhagi: because I thought that they had been going out for awhile now...
    AranElus: no
    BindiBhagi: hm
    AranElus: they'd be doing something with her friends dealing with playing music at schools and such
    BindiBhagi: ahh
    AranElus: they'd only started actually going out alone together fairly recently..
    AranElus: i'm gonne call Al up when i get back from Carolina and set up some time for us to write a song, heh
    AranElus: and i can jab questions in at how his relationship with carrie is going.
    BindiBhagi: heh
    AranElus: i actually ran into them when i was with steve at the park two days ago... then steve ran into them again at the pool the next day. they were noticably going out each time.... it wasn't like a coincidence or anythign
    AranElus: i mean, it wasn't a coincidence that they were together (al and carrie) those two days...
    AranElus: so.. what's been up with you recently?
    BindiBhagi: marching band camp
    BindiBhagi: today and yesterday
    BindiBhagi: Hell with a capital H
    AranElus: yeah.. hehe
    BindiBhagi: I'd quit if I didn't have so much fun
    AranElus: i think i may know what you mean
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: it's good though for me this year because the drums are in the pit for the entire show.. we aren't supposed to march at all.
    BindiBhagi: that's no fun
    AranElus: we'll just be sitting around in the pit.. hah.. what fun
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: actually.. if the other soph snare drum isn't so good, i might have to play snare...and march
    AranElus: we've got a nice drum section solo this year anyhow
    BindiBhagi: the fun part is coming off the field after performing the halftime show with sweat dripping down your face and the crowd jumping and cheering for you
    AranElus: hah
    AranElus: an every day occurance for my band =P
    AranElus: no swaet, though
    AranElus: just lots of cheers
    AranElus: hehe
    BindiBhagi: if you aren't sweating then you aren't giving it your all
    BindiBhagi: and we give it everything
    BindiBhagi: and look damn good while doing it
    AranElus: well... some sweat... it depends on the weather
    AranElus: hehe
    BindiBhagi: oh right...
    AranElus: not much sweat this year, though.. sorry to say
    BindiBhagi: northerners...
    BindiBhagi: bah
    AranElus: that is very endearing
    AranElus: the "bah" that you use
    AranElus: i find it to be endearing
    BindiBhagi: heh
    BindiBhagi: you guys know nothing about hell
    AranElus: so what?
    BindiBhagi: by the time I die, I'll be ready for the weather
    AranElus: we have our band camp too
    AranElus: hehe
    BindiBhagi: dinner time
    AranElus: i know enough about hell already... i toook a tour last week
    BindiBhagi: I'll be back later
    AranElus: bye then...
    BindiBhagi: bye
    BindiBhagi signed off at 6:56:06 PM.
    6:41 pm
    it figures...
    well, i figure that since ii don't feeling writing about my pitiful existance, i might as well just post some dialogues between me and my friends as to give you a glimpse of what i'm like, although, i don't know why in hell you'd want that...

    well, anyway...

    MusicLyss321: Hey. Long time, no?
    AranElus: yeah...
    AranElus: i'm going away tommorrow
    AranElus: heh
    MusicLyss321: where?
    AranElus: to carolina..
    MusicLyss321: I'm thinking that by next week I'll have punched Mike in the face
    AranElus: one or t'other
    MusicLyss321: Mike Lione
    AranElus: hehe
    MusicLyss321: He just pisses and moans and doesn't try to fix or do anything.
    MusicLyss321: argh
    MusicLyss321: I hate when people bitch to me.
    MusicLyss321: I don't mind it in small doses
    AranElus: and i, too
    MusicLyss321: but endless shit
    MusicLyss321: especially the kind that if you shut up, and just deal, it does go away
    AranElus: why do people whine about tings that they can fix?
    MusicLyss321: they want sympathy?
    AranElus: yes
    AranElus: that's always the case
    MusicLyss321: I like sympathy
    MusicLyss321: haha
    AranElus: i enjoy it also
    AranElus: everything we do comes down to a fight for sympathy
    MusicLyss321: Really?
    MusicLyss321: I don't think that
    MusicLyss321: Some things I think are driven by love or its opposite, hate
    AranElus: sympathy and survival.
    MusicLyss321: You know those are the same things
    AranElus: love is funny in that it is, by nature, an obssession shared between two people, yet, when it's only one person, it is considered insanity...
    MusicLyss321: am I insane, then
    AranElus: yes
    AranElus: you are one of us.
    MusicLyss321: I'm not sure.........just confused for now until I know
    MusicLyss321: I've been led to believe that I'm not
    AranElus: you never know if your insane or not
    MusicLyss321: Am I crazier for believing in what I want?
    AranElus: yes
    AranElus: the normal is sane, difference is insanity
    MusicLyss321: It is normal for people to believe in things that they want
    AranElus: it doesn't matter if it's a destructive difference, or a constructive one. It's still insanity all the same
    AranElus: people not a person.
    MusicLyss321: but if it's constructive insanity, it's called genius
    AranElus: it's insanity
    MusicLyss321: People are stupid like sheep
    MusicLyss321: A person is intelligent and soulful
    AranElus: hah.
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: your right..
    MusicLyss321: also directly constructive or destructive
    MusicLyss321: people is neuter
    AranElus: yes
    MusicLyss321: a person has a gender
    AranElus: a person is human
    AranElus: people are stupid
    AranElus: hehe
    MusicLyss321: people will cause the end of the world
    MusicLyss321: a person will fix it
    AranElus: hehe
    AranElus: if only the mob would die
    MusicLyss321: have fun away.
    MusicLyss321: I've gotta run
    MusicLyss321: ciao
    AranElus: cya
    MusicLyss321 signed off at 6:39:32 PM.
    Thursday, August 2nd, 2001
    10:54 pm
    Update on my sad-sad-sad-sad-sad life.
    well, over the past long time that i havent posted anything substantial (like any of you would care?) i have done a few things. none of which mean anything yet, but that is yet to be seen in the future of these things.

    steve and i teamed up with final clash... he wants to make it three-d so for now i am saying, "what the hell, lets give it a try" and we are trying... i hope it turns out good.

    carrie and alex are going out... so to speak. I realized this when i was at the park with steve and they walked in... i had no idea she was there with him, i just saw him, so, anyway, they walked around the park and talked, and we rode around the park. What an odd incidence. and the day after, hales was hanging around with them, and scott, at the pool, and he says that they were hugging for some reason... whatever... i'm happy that they're together, at least.

    ugh, i'm bored of writing.. gonna stop and play TA... bye
    10:46 pm
    The Silence Within
    The silence within screams
    wishing it could come out
    and run around free;
    stealing all my dreams
    with it's evil hands
    all tainted black
    with the hopes of
    a thousand souls
    that faded from
    the pages of
    a book
    infinitely dull.

    You seek my silence
    with you tattered probings
    and your wasted times
    sitting on the shores of
    another day other than
    the day of golden divans
    and all sort of inane rubbish
    that we give value
    and we give virtue
    to things and places
    that don't deserve it.

    The silence draws a sword of gold
    and you slowly see the bold
    and daring attempts
    that were once made
    to hold my sould in contempt
    but they were failures
    and so will also
    be you and your friends
    if you mess with my ends.
    Friday, July 27th, 2001
    11:20 pm
    Predicting the Future
    It's like thunder down a mountain
    ripping the clouds asunder
    drowning out the world
    and dragging you down under.

    It's like lightening frying tommorrow
    and breaking your fall
    like you can beat the future
    like running through a wall

    Walk the jagged edge of life
    fall off if you are a fool
    because the world will shun you
    and in the end you amount to drool.

    Keep the fourth element
    loose yourself in the third
    but don't find the second
    or you will be a the lunch of a bird.

    So you want to fly away
    you foolish little wretch
    i caught you before tommorrow
    could make a great catch.

    Throw the bullets in the gun
    don't throw them away
    because you'll need them later
    to hold your friends at bay.

    Have you seen the future.
    nope, only today.
    and when you look toward tommorrow
    your brain will decay.

    Dukes and kings rule their countries
    and have sovereign kingdoms
    that they take from the gods of today
    with their pitiful vendettas done.
    6:54 pm
    Tommorrow: Follow me
    Slide yourself
    along the line
    but don't fall
    out of time
    and out of space
    you thought you knew
    into that area
    without a clue.

    Just dance your way
    past tommorrow
    and borrow
    my future for a while
    and waste away
    tommorrows sorrow
    on today's infinity.

    Thirst for the past
    and hunger for the present
    and then jump aside
    and don't let the truck hit you,
    and don't let two worlds collide.

    Take a detour along
    life's pleasures
    but don't stray
    to far away
    from your homeland.

    If you find yourself lost
    and your brains are tossed
    just remember that you are here
    and where you want to go is there
    and loose yourself in the moment
    so you can find your spot in time.

    The last step is a trip
    down the lanes of yesterday
    and to where a steady drip
    of tommorrow's tears flow steadiily
    waiting for your sip.

    The fruit of your labor
    must not find the floor;
    it is what you savour
    when you are lost
    and need promises
    to guide your last
    attempt at perfection,
    or when you're gone
    and all you have
    is a reflection of dawns
    that will break another day.
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